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elenaboo25
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- Oct 19, 2025
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I was thinking of what I could get a hold of. TBH I was thinking about it all night, even in my sleep. I am pretty sure if I ordered SN to my flat (assuming I'd even find a real source), I'd get a visit from police, customs or both, and then i'd end up in a mental hospital, which I don't want. I've considered making SA myself, but neither do I have lab equipment at home, nor do I feel confident that I could do it correctly and without blowing up the house. Seeing as I live in a block of flats, potentially blowing up the house is not a risk I want to take. I don't think any of my neighbors are suicidal, as far as I know. Some of them have young children. So now I'm sat here before having to go to work and pretend eveything's fine, and I'm thinking of reaching out to some addicts known to me who are being treated with Methadone, and asking them for some. Is that a feasible method? How much would I need? Probably quite a lot, as I weigh nearly 100kg.