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dewdfish

dewdfish

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Nov 30, 2025
15
I tried to OD on my prescribed medication and I almost worked. Except that… I woke up nearly having a cardio respiratory arrest and ended up in the hospital - I don't know how I called an ambulance, but I guess I freaked out.
For more information, this was my method, I did some throughout research on it and even confirmed it with AI before going through it, and as I said, it nearly worked.

3g quetiapine
4g alprazolam (Xanax)
Half a bottle of Gin.

First 40 minutes I felt really tired, sleepy and drowsy, laid in bed and went to sleep. Woke up about 3-4 hours later lost in what had just happened and I have very little recollection of this day. Couldn't stand nor walk straight, my head was spinning, my breathing was very very slow to a point where it felt like gasping for air and I had 165 BPM - confirmed at the hospital. I think I called for help at some point as SI started kicking in and my cats were very loving to me while I was sitting on the floor. While at the hospital, they tried everything they could to keep me awake and kept asking questions about my method, I couldn't stop drooling and eventually passed out and my heart stopped, I had to be resuscitated and ended up there for like 2 days because I left the hospital on my own while they weren't looking, as I noticed they were going to lock me up.
Hadn't I been scared of dying that day, I probably would've been gone by now and it feels awful to still be here, I feel miserable and it seems to have affected my heart because even the slightest effort on doing something my heart rate goes to the flipping sky and I feel like I'm about to pass out again.
 
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homeboundcripple

homeboundcripple

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Jun 6, 2025
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not that silly considering it almost worked tho if only their SI didn't kick in they would've been dead by now
Saying it 'almost worked' is meaningless, her body might have forced it back up, or body eventually processes it and leave her with permanent brain damage.
 
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dewdfish

dewdfish

Member
Nov 30, 2025
15
5% success rate is a silly risk to take.
i agree. i was desperate :/
not that silly considering it almost worked tho if only their SI didn't kick in they would've been dead by now
that's what the doctors told me. if I didn't call, I would've ctb'd successfully
Saying it 'almost worked' is meaningless, her body might have forced it back up, or body eventually processes it and leave her with permanent brain damage.
well, my heart stopped. if it weren't resuscitated I don't think it would've came back on its own. but I'm not a specialist so I might be pulling this one outta my ass
 

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