kane
Student
- Jun 26, 2020
- 171
I see there are other posts on psychedelics here but I didn't want to hijack anyone else's thread with my own specific issues.
So, I've come to the conclusion that I'd like to try psychedelics. My issues seem far too entrenched to be resolved by therapy or lifestyle changes. I've tried multiple therapists over the years and any positive impact has only ever been small. Even with the best therapist I think it would take decades to see any meaningful change, and I just don't have it in me. I also tried several antidepressants a long time ago, and got nothing from it other than a few nasty side effects. I've gone through all the usual changes to diet and exercise. Some help things a little, but none fundamentally changes my experience of life.
I feel like I really need something to alter my perception and experience of reality, to open my mind to new ways of being. I need to get outside of my mind, even if it's just for a while, to be able to change my personality. I've heard a lot of good things about the mind-expanding properties of psychedelics over the years from rational people whose views I respect, And I don't have any of the risk factors for use (no past susceptibility to psychosis in myself or family.) So it seems like a risk worth taking.
I believe all psychedelics are still illegal in the UK, outside some limited academic trials. Unfortunately taking part in such a trial doesn't seem like a viable option for me, as my issues are very niche, and there's things I could only discuss with a specialist in them.
So that leaves me with the route of obtaining them illegally. And despite rapidly approaching middle-age, I'm probably one of the most naïve, least streetwise people you can imagine. I've never bought narcotics of any kind, and have no idea how to do so without getting caught. I have the vague idea that purchasing from the dark web would be safer than trying to get it on the street (I live in a very rural area, so I'm not sure if people even sell that kind of thing round here.) I have pretty much zero social connections, so I don't know anyone who knows a dealer or anything like that. If I were to use the dark web, I'm not sure where to look without getting scammed, or caught. I believe it's possible to test the purity of whatever you buy with a kit so I would try to do that, but I don't know if there's any reputable sites or sellers. And I don't know if you have to worry about international shipments or customs or anything like that. Ideally I'd also like to avoid giving money to violent gangs, but I don't know if there's such a thing as an ethical source for drugs.
Basically, I want to avoid attracting police attention, and to avoid getting scammed. If anyone has any relevant experience of obtaining these kinds of drugs, especially in the UK, I'd be very grateful. Or even if you just know a better place to ask this kind of thing, that'd be great. I'm wary of just jumping on to the dark web without knowing where to go, and I imagine googling it won't get me far.
So, I've come to the conclusion that I'd like to try psychedelics. My issues seem far too entrenched to be resolved by therapy or lifestyle changes. I've tried multiple therapists over the years and any positive impact has only ever been small. Even with the best therapist I think it would take decades to see any meaningful change, and I just don't have it in me. I also tried several antidepressants a long time ago, and got nothing from it other than a few nasty side effects. I've gone through all the usual changes to diet and exercise. Some help things a little, but none fundamentally changes my experience of life.
I feel like I really need something to alter my perception and experience of reality, to open my mind to new ways of being. I need to get outside of my mind, even if it's just for a while, to be able to change my personality. I've heard a lot of good things about the mind-expanding properties of psychedelics over the years from rational people whose views I respect, And I don't have any of the risk factors for use (no past susceptibility to psychosis in myself or family.) So it seems like a risk worth taking.
I believe all psychedelics are still illegal in the UK, outside some limited academic trials. Unfortunately taking part in such a trial doesn't seem like a viable option for me, as my issues are very niche, and there's things I could only discuss with a specialist in them.
So that leaves me with the route of obtaining them illegally. And despite rapidly approaching middle-age, I'm probably one of the most naïve, least streetwise people you can imagine. I've never bought narcotics of any kind, and have no idea how to do so without getting caught. I have the vague idea that purchasing from the dark web would be safer than trying to get it on the street (I live in a very rural area, so I'm not sure if people even sell that kind of thing round here.) I have pretty much zero social connections, so I don't know anyone who knows a dealer or anything like that. If I were to use the dark web, I'm not sure where to look without getting scammed, or caught. I believe it's possible to test the purity of whatever you buy with a kit so I would try to do that, but I don't know if there's any reputable sites or sellers. And I don't know if you have to worry about international shipments or customs or anything like that. Ideally I'd also like to avoid giving money to violent gangs, but I don't know if there's such a thing as an ethical source for drugs.
Basically, I want to avoid attracting police attention, and to avoid getting scammed. If anyone has any relevant experience of obtaining these kinds of drugs, especially in the UK, I'd be very grateful. Or even if you just know a better place to ask this kind of thing, that'd be great. I'm wary of just jumping on to the dark web without knowing where to go, and I imagine googling it won't get me far.