Help Obsession with throwing stuff away?

[Nitlott]

It's not about throwing stuff away only but the feeling of owning as little as you can? No idea of wording this.
One of my dreams is still having all my stuff fit in a carry-on but I get now that it's nearly impossible. But a year or two ago it was like a fixation, not in a "more space in your room" way but wanting to get rid of as much stuff as you're able to. I still break/ruin certain things just so I get an excuse to throw it out. I was cleaning yesterday and that fixation got back, although not as extreme as it was before.
I think I have this obsession because of family's old flat. We had a roomate (had his own room) and shared the corridor, kitchen and bathroom, we had 2 rooms. Small if to compare with our new flat. Had a lot of stuff just laying and rotting. So a lot of it was in wardrobes and on them. My room was semi-mine, due to lack of space wardrobes with clothes were in my room. Stuff was placed on the wardrobes once again, it almost touched the ceiling and we had quite tall walls mind you! I also had a huge rack there. It still haunts me, it was an open storage one (2 big and small drawers at the bottom) and every shelf was clogged up. It was tiring to even look at it, let alone live with it. And the cherry on top was that it was almost impossible to clean out for a child. It was hell. Especially with the fact that sometimes I get the feeling that theres too much stuff in the room. It's not only that you can see but feel too, and it makes me really sick and anxious.
I also do it with people, memorabilia... My drawings too, any art I do will be cutted ans shredded sooner or later. I get that I won't be able to notice my progress. Sometimes I get this urge to throw away stuff I made/wrote as a kid and the only thing stopping me is that my family would be sad.
I haven't seen anything on this topic online, the only thing being THRASH and THRASH! by KurageP which is less than nothing... I don't even know if I need to do something about it or not. Maybe it's normal to feel this way. I remember how I used to daydream of my future flat burning to the ground, preferably with me inside, like an attempt but I ditched that idea. It would harm other people and I don't think I could burn my flat without the fire spreading or having no one but me in the apartment building even in theory... Anyone with similar experience?

P.S.: Didn't reread it, so there might be mistakes

 

[Kamaainakupua]

I run through cycles like this, where I take minimalism to a distubing degree. Since the act of giving away or discarding personal belongings is such a red flag, I can't even give a book to one of my providers without getting a full assessment run on me. Part of it, for me, is the feeling in the back of my mind that I always need to be ready to run. Another part is the old, always be ready mentality instilled by the military, which also promotes minimalism.
Only you can judge whether your behaviour is more idiosyncratic than obsessive compulsive, but I thank you for bringing it up. I was about to go throw more stuff away because it felt like I had too much.

 

[fedup1982]

I wish I could decanter. I have too much shit I haven't touched in years

 

[dreaming]

I started throwing out a bunch of stuff, I used to be very sentimental, I still am with certain things, I feel like I'm being mean for getting rid of anything given to me as a gift even if I have 0 use for it, but anything I made or got for myself idm getting rid of if it doesn't really do anything for me.
tbh the only reason I *don't* trash drawings is because like you said it's harder to really see progression or learn from it and I really want to improve.
If I can I like to give stuff I get rid of to someone else who may have a use for it or enjoy it isn't a complete waste.
I really want to get rid of old pictures of myself but it probably would upset my family, it's annoying, I hate being in pictures at all.