LookMomImFlying
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- Apr 23, 2018
- 73
Nobody's life is perfect. In fact my family was very average as far as income and what not. But god I miss my childhood. I had so much fun, so many great memories, and most importantly, so many missed opportunities. I love sleeping because it seems like I have dreams about my childhood all the time.
Ever since I graduated high school, I've worked at least one 40-hour job and sometimes a second 20 hour job like now, just to pay for my shitty apartment that I rarely even get to see, and student loans. My job sucks, I have no friends, I isolate myself because I just don't want to act fake, my life sucks. I haven't had sex in four years. I have no time to even kind of date women and even if I did, I don't feel like acting fake. I don't use Facebook. Its fake and nauseating. So basically my life is working all the time, sleeping all the time, and figuring out the best way to exit this worthless existence. Glad I live alone and work in software (I know internet protocols well) because if I was a regular Joe, my search history would be all Nembutal, hanging, shooting in head, jumping from bridges, etc.
I just want to die. There is no purpose in this life. I watch the Matrix at least once a week because this life HAS to be a computer simulation. Its so fucked up. I don't know where most of you live, but the USA is particularly fucked up. Weird dystopian police state that most of the population LOVES. Its so creepy. And now I'll take my Tylenol PM and pass out, hoping tonight I dream about 8th grade since last night was 10th grade.
Ever since I graduated high school, I've worked at least one 40-hour job and sometimes a second 20 hour job like now, just to pay for my shitty apartment that I rarely even get to see, and student loans. My job sucks, I have no friends, I isolate myself because I just don't want to act fake, my life sucks. I haven't had sex in four years. I have no time to even kind of date women and even if I did, I don't feel like acting fake. I don't use Facebook. Its fake and nauseating. So basically my life is working all the time, sleeping all the time, and figuring out the best way to exit this worthless existence. Glad I live alone and work in software (I know internet protocols well) because if I was a regular Joe, my search history would be all Nembutal, hanging, shooting in head, jumping from bridges, etc.
I just want to die. There is no purpose in this life. I watch the Matrix at least once a week because this life HAS to be a computer simulation. Its so fucked up. I don't know where most of you live, but the USA is particularly fucked up. Weird dystopian police state that most of the population LOVES. Its so creepy. And now I'll take my Tylenol PM and pass out, hoping tonight I dream about 8th grade since last night was 10th grade.