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JmPittsburgh
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- Feb 13, 2022
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Hi all -
I grew up during the Cold War, when it seemed inevitable that there would eventually be a nuclear war between the US and the USSR that would destroy the planet. Then, after the Soviet Union collapsed, there was a day sometime around 1991 where I remember thinking, "oh man, there isn't going to be a nuclear war after all!" and a huge weight lifted from my shoulders. (Everyone around my age that I've talked to has said the same thing - just some random day, they had that realization.)
And then when Putin invaded Ukraine (I do *not* want to get into any of the politics of this) all of a sudden it seemed like a real possibility again. Relations with China are also not reassuring.
I've gone through times where my depression included CTB thoughts, and I even developed a serious plan. Problem is - the plan involved jumping (I live in a large city; it's an entirely realistic plan) - but if there's a nuclear war and I'm left after the bombs drop, I definitely need a serious plan to CTB, and I suspect there won't be anything particularly tall for me to jump from. So I'm thinking about firearms, but am very much on the fence. Do I want to have a gun in my home? I know that I've had moments where I was so depressed that although I wanted to CTB, the thought of going all the way downtown...etc., etc...was so daunting that I just stayed in bed. Would the same thing have happened with a firearm in the house?
I don't know what my point is here except to say that I am very confused - but I have at least gone to the step of getting a firearms permit for my state... I dunno.
Anyone at all remember that Cold War feeling of dread, and is it coming back?
J
I grew up during the Cold War, when it seemed inevitable that there would eventually be a nuclear war between the US and the USSR that would destroy the planet. Then, after the Soviet Union collapsed, there was a day sometime around 1991 where I remember thinking, "oh man, there isn't going to be a nuclear war after all!" and a huge weight lifted from my shoulders. (Everyone around my age that I've talked to has said the same thing - just some random day, they had that realization.)
And then when Putin invaded Ukraine (I do *not* want to get into any of the politics of this) all of a sudden it seemed like a real possibility again. Relations with China are also not reassuring.
I've gone through times where my depression included CTB thoughts, and I even developed a serious plan. Problem is - the plan involved jumping (I live in a large city; it's an entirely realistic plan) - but if there's a nuclear war and I'm left after the bombs drop, I definitely need a serious plan to CTB, and I suspect there won't be anything particularly tall for me to jump from. So I'm thinking about firearms, but am very much on the fence. Do I want to have a gun in my home? I know that I've had moments where I was so depressed that although I wanted to CTB, the thought of going all the way downtown...etc., etc...was so daunting that I just stayed in bed. Would the same thing have happened with a firearm in the house?
I don't know what my point is here except to say that I am very confused - but I have at least gone to the step of getting a firearms permit for my state... I dunno.
Anyone at all remember that Cold War feeling of dread, and is it coming back?
J