Venting (nsfw) I did sh again.

[shinitai_sh0jo]

Today I was alone at home.
Everyone had their own things to do, and I decided to stay.

It was alright for most of the time, until it just.. Suddenly wasn't.
I picked up the only small knive I had, used for general cutlery, and did it.
I tried to make it hot by placing into the stoven with the fire lit, but it didn't do much more damage as I expected it would.

I couldn't do much with what I had, but it did some harm.

I honestly feel tired and frustrated, for how badly I ended up, and how I could not have tried to cut my wrists with such a shitty material.

I told my therapist, but I'm not sure how to talk to my family.

I feel exhausted.

 

[Ruru-san]

it really be like this sometimes. I tried sh before out of curiosity while looking for ways to distract myself but it didn't really do it for me but I can definitely see where the addiction comes in . It must be so hard for you especially since you have nobody to talk to. I wish I had a solution and I could say it gets better but I don't even know myself. Guess it's a think we just gotta ride out I guess. Hang in there