pelicanportal
life could have been beautiful
- Jan 28, 2026
- 143
it just isn't working out. i have tried recovery a lot over my life but i've hit that wall that can't be climbed. life isn't worth living anymore. it hasnt been for awhile. why keep stalling?
i am waiting on two methods, one i dont think i will be spending the time to wait on though. the other is SN. then sitting on it and then waiting for a moment to strike. it happens at least once a week, the impulse. i have rarely been happy to stay alive after it passes these days.
i gave it nearly 35 years. i havent been convinced or been able to make or find a reason to live. no hope
i really wish things had been even a little different.
i am waiting on two methods, one i dont think i will be spending the time to wait on though. the other is SN. then sitting on it and then waiting for a moment to strike. it happens at least once a week, the impulse. i have rarely been happy to stay alive after it passes these days.
i gave it nearly 35 years. i havent been convinced or been able to make or find a reason to live. no hope
i really wish things had been even a little different.
