Discussion Note or nah?

[Holu]

Not that I'm currently writing just curious as to what peoples thoughts are on whether its worth writing or why you would/wouldn't write.


Personally I'm a no note person, since as much as I'd want to tie up loose ends I don't feel I have the strength to fully write it out. Worse, I think if I did write it out I might become cognitive enough to not follow through.

 

[slugcat]

No, i don't think i would write a note, iv been doing baddly enough for long enough, noone will be suprised or wonder why i did it.
Besides, the two times i attempted, i didn't really write a note, just a "sorry couldn't do it".
Writting more than a few words would be useless and i would hate having a baddly written text as my last thing done in this world.

But you actually raised a point i hadn't thought about before, i thinnk that if i had the force and will to write the note, i would actually end up not doing it, bcs it would calm me down in a way

 

[RoundaboutResolved]

Depends on your personal situation. If there are still loved ones who would miss me & wonder why, then yes. If just me, f@ck the world, no note.

 

[Holu]

No, i don't think i would write a note, iv been doing baddly enough for long enough, noone will be suprised or wonder why i did it.
Besides, the two times i attempted, i didn't really write a note, just a "sorry couldn't do it".
Writting more than a few words would be useless and i would hate having a baddly written text as my last thing done in this world.

But you actually raised a point i hadn't thought about before, i thinnk that if i had the force and will to write the note, i would actually end up not doing it, bcs it would calm me down in a way

That shit is very therapeutic ngl.

 

[Lon]

Write it. If it stops you in your tracks just to write a note, you're not ready. I don't know what you have to deal with, and I won't pretend I do. But it might be worth it to stick things out a little longer. if you can do that for me

 

[Holu]

Write it. If it stops you in your tracks just to write a note, you're not ready. I don't know what you have to deal with, and I won't pretend I do. But it might be worth it to stick things out a little longer. if you can do that for me

Solid ass way of looking at it. Still though I personally am not checking up on the local bus schedule anytime soon. I refuse to let my mother suffer so either murder suicide or just wait in Limbo(which I'm sorta, kinda, not really cool with atm)

 

[my-end]

Solid ass way of looking at it. Still though I personally am not checking up on the local bus schedule anytime soon. I refuse to let my mother suffer so either murder suicide or just wait in Limbo(which I'm sorta, kinda, not really cool with atm)

Damn.
It's already a sad ass world, please don't double up. I have no idea how you're feeling but reading that just struck me hard. I'm sorry it's going rough although I have zero idea of your or your mom's situation. If there's any joy in doing something for your mom I hope you look for those things. Again, I don't know you but sometimes it can be the smallest of things.

 

[Holu]

Damn.
It's already a sad ass world, please don't double up. I have no idea how you're feeling but reading that just struck me hard. I'm sorry it's going rough although I have zero idea of your or your mom's situation. If there's any joy in doing something for your mom I hope you look for those things. Again, I don't know you but sometimes it can be the smallest of things.

Nah my moms chillin. But I've always had an absurdly good connection with her. I went to therapy as a 6 year old since I'm born BP. Always use to sit by here side and hug her and watch her play videogames. One small depressed agoraphobic family ig lmao.
The murder thing is more that I can't ctb without absolutely destroying her. At that point it's mercy for me to take her with me, but it's so selfish and utterly evil I don't really know if I can go thru with it. As such I kinda just suffer for her.

 

[Absolutely Mad]

Would I? I always stop myself because me leaving would mean a total disaster for some people. And since there is still some humanity left in me, I don't want to poison their existense and make them feel as I do.

I would definitely leave a note for someone I care about.
But if no one remains, I guess some unfunny joke would do the job. At least someone would smile.

But yeah, who knows, maybe one day I will just stumble upon a gun and end it all without a second thought. My plans never work out anyway.

Thanks for an interesting question.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I've written 20 individuals one to 20 different people. These will be your last communications.

 

[FuneralCry]

It just depends on the individual whether to write a note or not, it's a personal decision but I would see it as being best so that those left behind aren't left with as many unanswered questions.

 

[Walilamdzii]

I think the people who love me already know why, if anything I will just say something along the lines of "this isn't your fault, I love you".. to the person I blame, I kind of want to write "be more careful with your words and actions towards people, I'm still 5 years younger than you were when you met me and a lot of your behaviour towards me caused my downwards spiral... you had already lived a life, now mine is cut short"... idk I have to word it better than that really. Equally many people have pointed out that this person categorically will not care.

 

[im here i guess]

I'm super sentimental, I'd probably enjoy crying and writing some goodbye notes to people I care about, telling them that I really dont want them to be sad and stuff.

 

[dogtired]

The murder thing is more that I can't ctb without absolutely destroying her. At that point it's mercy for me to take her with me, but it's so selfish and utterly evil I don't really know if I can go thru with it. As such I kinda just suffer for her.

I understand the crushing guilt of leaving someone behind who won't cope without you. That being said, please don't kill your mother. She might be broken by your suicide and choose to kill herself but that decision should be hers to make. She sounds like a lovely person from what you've written btw <3

And to answer your original question, yes I'll be leaving a note. First to make it clear that it was a suicide and not an accidental overdose, and second to reassure my loved ones that it wasn't their fault and to explain my reasons. My mum will be crushed by it like yours, and I need to reassure her that she did everything right (which she did) so she doesn't blame herself.