Not wanting to live but scared to die

[breezy999]

I'm new here and I just wanted to share what's been going on. I've been having SI for a long time. There's many thoughts that race throughout my mind such as downing a bunch of pills, jumping, overdose, etc. the only thing that's holding me back is fear and I hate it so much.

 

[allthatimsaying]

Hey, thanks for sharing your thoughts.

There are a few methods to overcome SI, as far as I know:

• Full hanging, all you have to do is to jump/kick the chair
• Partial hanging, while passing out before effectively doing it
• Jumping from a building, but only if you don't have acrophobia
• Gunshot, just pull the trigger

Any of these methods appeal to you?

 

[breezy999]

Hey, thanks for sharing your thoughts.

There are a few methods to overcome SI, as far as I know:

• Full hanging, all you have to do is to jump/kick the chair
• Partial hanging, while passing out before effectively doing it
• Jumping from a building, but only if you don't have acrophobia
• Gunshot, just pull the trigger

Any of these methods appeal to you?

Thank you for your response. I want to go peacefully so I was leaning more towards taking a bunch of pills and probably mix it with alcohol or drugs as that would be the least painful at least in my opinion.

 

[Death is my goal]

if you scared to die then you're not ready ctb, that's all there's to it.

 

[breezy999]

if you scared to die then you're not ready ctb, that's all there's to it.

I hear you but at the same time I don't think that's necessarily true. I think fear is a valid emotion to have when deciding to ctb as it's not an easy thing to do as it's a big decision, it also doesn't help that I'm scared of physical pain. 'm also scared of the concept that I'd survive an attempt.

 

[Death is my goal]

I hear you but at the same time I don't think that's necessarily true. I think fear is a valid emotion to have when deciding to ctb as it's not an easy thing to do as it's a big decision, it also doesn't help that I'm scared of physical pain. 'm also scared of the concept that I'd survive an attempt.

never said you shouldn't be afraid, it's natural. i'm just saying when you hit rock bottom fear wouldn't be an obstacle and you're not there yet.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't really think that taking random accessible pills is a reliable suicide method anyway as after all we exist in such an anti-suicide society, if people could easily and peacefully leave this world in such a way then the pills would soon be restricted. But anyway it's understandable having fears as suicide just isn't straightforward, failing a ctb attempt is also what I would fear, the thought of such a thing horrifies me, I see it as being so inhumane how we are denied the option to just reliably and peacefully leave this world without difficulties.