mono
I hope my last breath is a sigh of relief.
- Jul 11, 2023
- 49
I feel too guilty to vent to my friends about this because they are dealing with their own issues and I don't want to make it worse for them so here we are.
I've been feeling really tired lately. It's gotten to the point were as soon as I come home from work I either sleep or lay in bed for hours trying to fall asleep. I've been completely neglecting myself and I started self harm again. Sometimes I can force myself to be productive but that's only when I absolutely need to.
The thing is I don't have any plan to ctb just yet, I guess I might have some hope for things getting better but that's what I've been saying for the past few months so I'm really starting to doubt that. I always say "just make it to Friday" and when Friday comes the relief doesn't last enough for me to really get the break I need.
I'm genuinely surprised I've been able to keep a job this long because of how poorly I preform. I might try to stay alive a little longer just to see how things turn out for me but I genuinely don't see a future past 25.
I've been feeling really tired lately. It's gotten to the point were as soon as I come home from work I either sleep or lay in bed for hours trying to fall asleep. I've been completely neglecting myself and I started self harm again. Sometimes I can force myself to be productive but that's only when I absolutely need to.
The thing is I don't have any plan to ctb just yet, I guess I might have some hope for things getting better but that's what I've been saying for the past few months so I'm really starting to doubt that. I always say "just make it to Friday" and when Friday comes the relief doesn't last enough for me to really get the break I need.
I'm genuinely surprised I've been able to keep a job this long because of how poorly I preform. I might try to stay alive a little longer just to see how things turn out for me but I genuinely don't see a future past 25.