Daxter_87
If my name is crossed out, hopefully I'm dead.
- May 28, 2023
- 400
One of the main reasons I will have to CTB in the future is that I simply cannot survive on my own. Key words here being "will have to". Yes, I'm forced to do it. I don't really have a choice about it. When my parents die, it's over. It's already hard enough with them still around, providing for me and taking care of me.
I struggle to do the most basic of chores, such as hygienic ones. It takes me forever to do anything (2 hours to eat, 30 minutes to go to the bathroom, etc. ). I don't have too many things to do, but I find it hard to do them anyway. I'm just not good at living at all.
On top of this, there's the financial aspect to it. When my parents pass away, I won't have any income, so I will eventually run out of money. "And why don't you find a job?", you may ask. Well, because jobs are absolutely awful slavery, and I'm not willing to accept it. I did not ask to be born, just as I did not ask to have to slave away to survive. I struggle to do chores, let alone working at a job.
So yeah, that's basically it. Hopefully I will be able to find a SN source (my chosen method), but if that's not possible, I guess I'll have to resort to hanging or something like that. There's also the option of inert gas, but the setup is expensive and irksome.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
I struggle to do the most basic of chores, such as hygienic ones. It takes me forever to do anything (2 hours to eat, 30 minutes to go to the bathroom, etc. ). I don't have too many things to do, but I find it hard to do them anyway. I'm just not good at living at all.
On top of this, there's the financial aspect to it. When my parents pass away, I won't have any income, so I will eventually run out of money. "And why don't you find a job?", you may ask. Well, because jobs are absolutely awful slavery, and I'm not willing to accept it. I did not ask to be born, just as I did not ask to have to slave away to survive. I struggle to do chores, let alone working at a job.
So yeah, that's basically it. Hopefully I will be able to find a SN source (my chosen method), but if that's not possible, I guess I'll have to resort to hanging or something like that. There's also the option of inert gas, but the setup is expensive and irksome.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.