not goodbye yet

[yarv]

DISCLAIMER: I FORGOT TO CANCEL THIS IM SO VERY SORRY TO ANYONE WHO SAW THIS BEFORE HAND
Hi everyone.
Firstly, I just want to say thank you all for everything. You guys have been nothing but kind and supportive to me(for the most part), and for that I will always be eternally grateful. I don't think anyone joins SaSu and expects to spend as much time here as I have, I've met and lost so many wonderful people here, and let me tell you, if I could go back and decide whether or no
t to rejoin here, I would do this all over again.

To those I was close with, I wish I had more to say. If you truly knew me, you know I love you more than words could describe, and I hope that my many messages formatted as letters give you some sort of solace in these circumstances. I don't know if you believe in ghosts, but if I am one, I'm sure I'll haunt you.

Life was easier with you all in my life. Stick around for awhile, if not for yourself then for me.
I wish I had more to say, Other than I'm sorry, and I love you.
Here's some songs I love:









PHYSICAL NOTE I WROTE FOR YOU GUYS:

(just noticed a typo FML)
I should say, this is scheduled. I'll always hold you guys dear to my heart, please for yourself, make it out of here alive. It gets worse before it gets better, I promise.

For the final time: In case I don't see you, good afternoon, good evening and goodnight.
-yarv

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

I'm absolutly terrible at any and all goodbyes or emotion stuff, so here's a final bean instead o7

 

[Jadeith]

Stay painless, stay at peace.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you found peace.

 

[yarv]

hi, so sorry I forgot to cancel this(sorry, holy shit, I feel terrible, I self admitted on Friday and just discharged myself today) However, i would like to keep this up, as I do feel it is important to let you guys know this stuff.

You are loved more than you know, I can't stop you from doing what you want to do(lord knows I want to too) but things can change, People do love and care about you, and it breaks my heart to see you guys struggling.

Again, I'm really sorry to anyone who is grieving or worried about me, I may still take my own life at some point, hell it's probably inevitable, but for the time being I'm alive.
Take care and be safe,
Yarv

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Welcome back! :-)

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Glad to hear you are okay, thanks for sharing this with us. All the best on your new path, you are always welcome here as you know. Be safe and take care of you too. Sending hugs your way.

 

[AnimusLapsus]

I do not know you, but I read this post earlier and was absolutely heartbroken. I am so relieved to hear you are okay, received clinical support, and are back home. I commend your vulnerability in keeping this post up—it is a stark reminder that there is no such thing as the point of no return. For many lost in the distorted and frenzied haze of anguish, the path to deliverance, a death by their own hand, appears inevitable—preordained, even. However, if it is true that death is written in their stars, then so is life. Course correction may seem improbable, but it is never impossible. Let this post be a testament to that.

Remember that no man steps into the same river twice—for it is not the same river, and he is not the same man. The world is not safe. It burns. It shifts. It devours the weak and reshapes the strong. Struggle is not your enemy; it is your teacher. Suffering is not your curse; it is your forge. You cannot cling to what was, for it is already gone. Those who resist change will be broken by it, crushed beneath the weight of time. But those who embrace it, who walk into the fire and let it shape them, become something greater. The coward flees from the storm, but the wise man walks into it, knowing that only through chaos is greatness born.

 

[getoutgirl]

Glad you are in a position to cancel it honestly
Btw I love your music taste, mountain goats, kimya dawson and pat the bunny 4 evar
if you ever wanna talk folk punk and the sort dms open :3
that was off topic but oh well, I'm happy for you, be safe too <3

 

[Whydid]

I love you, Yarv. Whatever you decide.