Venting Not being able to find a job makes me want to kill myself.

[suicidalbnuy]

Lately, I've been thinking about killing myself. Not being able to find a job makes it worse.

Why is it so complicated to get a job? I mean, I know I don't have real experience, but even for entry-level or junior roles, I keep getting rejected.

I knew that doing a master's without experience was a mistake. Why did I study for a master's without experience? I don't know.

Now I have debts, and my parents have their own problems, so they can't afford to help me financially. Well, to be honest, they've never really helped me with anything.

I've thought about hanging myself, but I'm too stupid to even make a simple knot. I also had this idea of throwing myself in front of a car while cycling—at least it might look like an accident or something.

 

[derekWest]

Lately, I've been thinking about killing myself. Not being able to find a job makes it worse.

Why is it so complicated to get a job? I mean, I know I don't have real experience, but even for entry-level or junior roles, I keep getting rejected.

I knew that doing a master's without experience was a mistake. Why did I study for a master's without experience? I don't know.

Now I have debts, and my parents have their own problems, so they can't afford to help me financially. Well, to be honest, they've never really helped me with anything.

I've thought about hanging myself, but I'm too stupid to even make a simple knot. I also had this idea of throwing myself in front of a car while cycling—at least it might look like an accident or something.

Hello, don't do these ctb ! You will just be more bad than before.
Study the ppeh before if you really want to ctb.

How do your colleagues to find job ? What are the differences between you and them ?
Can you maybe find a 'job coach' or something like that ?

 

[suicidalbnuy]

don't do these ctb ! You will just be more bad than before.

I was thinking about going at a low speed on the highway (without a helmet) and throwing myself at the biggest car that's going fast or something.

What is ppeh?

How do your colleagues to find job ? What are the differences between you and them ?
Can you maybe find a 'job coach' or something like that ?

I don't know. Probably the biggest mistake I made during undergrad and grad school was not making any friends, so I really don't know. From what I've heard, the most successful classmates were smart. But probably the people who have jobs made good connections, and that's how they landed a job. Maybe I'm just stupid, and I'm not good at anything.

 

[fallendevil]

Dude it's so hard, especially if you're neurodivergent/aren't a nepo baby. Even at fucking minimum wage fast food jobs they demand so much out of you during the interview process like bro?? It's just burger flipping fuck, all that for the kitchen to have mice running around too.

Then you find out they're either not hiring and just wasted your time so they could collect demographics or they gave it to their niece and held up everyone's time for the lulz.

 

[Fading_light74]

It's so hard to find a job

 

[lookingglassinsect]

If you commit suicide you'll never find a job.

 

[suicidalbnuy]

If you commit suicide you'll never find a job.

At least I will not have to worry about paying bills, debts, and healthcare anymore.

 

[derekWest]

Maybe I'm just stupid, and I'm not good at anything

Try to increase your self esteem. It will help you. Do you try some sport, make friends.... ?
I tell you this bc I try these on me. And if it don't work, go ctb...

 

[lookingglassinsect]

If you want to pay bills, debts, and so on, you can always get a minimum wage job. But that's boring. It's much more interesting to fulfill your potential.

I once gave up on building my career and took a minimum wage job, but eventually, I still found my way into the job I truly wanted

 

[derekWest]

you can always get a minimum wage job

It can be a real challenge if you have a disability!

What is ppeh?

PPH January 2025

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sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[lookingglassinsect]

It can be a real challenge if you have a disability!

That's true. But in many first-world countries, the government encourages companies to hire workers with disabilities.

 

[suicidalbnuy]

Try to increase your self esteem. It will help you. Do you try some sport, make friends.... ?
I tell you this bc I try these on me. And if it don't work, go ctb...

I find hard to do some sports. I enjoyed doing some running and cycling, but I don't have the energy or the motivation. I find difficult to make friends as an adult; everyone already has their friends, and rarely do they want new ones. I find it even harder to make meaningful friendships or real friendships.

 

[derekWest]

I find hard to do some sports. I enjoyed doing some running and cycling, but I don't have the energy or the motivation. I find difficult to make friends as an adult; everyone already has their friends, and rarely do they want new ones. I find it even harder to make meaningful friendships or real friendships.

Yes, I'm a little like you.
But I try some musculation and swimming pool as sport. And I try some Facebook groups to meet people locally.
.
The problem I think that the solutions exists but require some effort and on a quite long time without any success guaranty...

 

[macaroni]

I could've written this myself. I feel for you, so much. The job market is so shit right now, even minimum wage jobs want 10+ years of experience for a wage that can't even sustain the average adult. Everyone has degrees now, so degrees are useless. They only want people with experience, but you can't get experience in the first place, because you don't have experience for that job.

I swear every job I've applied to ends up hiring internally, but when the company I'm with is hiring, they never internally hire, so if you do get a job, you're stuck with no room for progression.

It's crazy because it's not like we want to just sit around and not work because we're lazy. We want to be productive members of society. We want to do what society wants us to do, but society is just slamming the door shut

 

[VioletWitch]

You shouldn't throw yourself in front of a car. There's a person driving that car, and you using them to kill yourself would hurt them, possibly ruin their life. If you're going to kill yourself, do it in a way that only involves you.