Normal life normal everything yet all I ever dreamt of is death

[Ms nobody]

Normal life
I Go to school
I Have a family (average income average everything)
Nothing weird, nothing traumatic happened, my life couldn't be any more average
And yet, I want to die that all I ever wanted I want to rest everything is so confusing scary awful and fake and I can't feel happy ever , I'm not in pain ,but , I'm never happy I don't dream of anything I don't want anything (money ,status,freinds,love) never loved anyone or anything and I have no reason to keep living this meaningless farce
So,there only one solutions
don't you agree?

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I agree it's all a meaningless farce. But one where extreme pain is highly probable. It's the matrix.

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Normal life
I Go to school
I Have a family (average income average everything)
Nothing weird, nothing traumatic happened, my life couldn't be any more average
And yet, I want to die that all I ever wanted I want to rest everything is so confusing scary awful and fake and I can't feel happy ever , I'm not in pain ,but , I'm never happy I don't dream of anything I don't want anything (money ,status,freinds,love) never loved anyone or anything and I have no reason to keep living this meaningless farce
So,there only one solutions
don't you agree?

Hello @Ms nobody,
I'm so sorry to hear that because I'm tired of life, too, and I feel like I have relatively easy life compared with other people on this forum.

Compassion can't exist if people don't think you are suffering.
And it couldn't exist if people thought it's your fault. So I guess you are feeling so lonely.

Do you feel like you can't enjoy anything, even if it's short-lived? If so, I think it's a pure torture because there is no reward for you while you are still responsible for your life, and you have to keep going no matter what.

In my case, I feel like I was a spoiled brat as a child and my life is a punishment for it.
Currently Sanctioned Suicide is my only reason to live. If this forum were gone, it would be time to go for me, too.

I hope your life will be bearable

 

[FuneralCry]

I've also always wished for permanent nonexistence, I see so much beauty in the thought of being completely unaware of everything.
Existing certainly is so tedious, futile and just unappealing, it's certainly not for me, even if there wasn't extreme suffering then all that would remain is the emptiness and dissatisfaction. Existing is just a process of slowly dying, we are just waiting to die, existing is just an undesirable distraction from that fact, simply just being conscious and aware makes the thought of not existing sound so incredibly appealing to me, I find comfort in the fact that death erases everything for us.

 

[Pillow_chatmallow]

Normal life
I Go to school
I Have a family (average income average everything)
Nothing weird, nothing traumatic happened, my life couldn't be any more average
And yet, I want to die that all I ever wanted I want to rest everything is so confusing scary awful and fake and I can't feel happy ever , I'm not in pain ,but , I'm never happy I don't dream of anything I don't want anything (money ,status,freinds,love) never loved anyone or anything and I have no reason to keep living this meaningless farce
So,there only one solutions

Bro, leave this place. You're going through something and as you said yourself, you never went through traumatic shit. So you're not as damaged as most people here. But the thing is like, and I don't care if someone disagree, here you will find methods to ctb. But Imagine doing it just because in the moment you felt bad? Imagine dying over a mistake. Enjoy your life as much as possible. I hope nothing extreme happens to you. And if it does because you know, life kinda sucks sometime, I wish you find the strength, I wish you find hope, I wish you try EVERYTHING YOU CAN to live, before trying to die.

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Bro, leave this place. You're going through something and as you said yourself, you never went through traumatic shit. So you're not as damaged as most people here. But the thing is like, and I don't care if someone disagree, here you will find methods to ctb. But Imagine doing it just because in the moment you felt bad? Imagine dying over a mistake. Enjoy your life as much as possible. I hope nothing extreme happens to you. And if it does because you know, life kinda sucks sometime, I wish you find the strength, I wish you find hope, I wish you try EVERYTHING YOU CAN to live, before trying to die.

What if they ran out energy to try
and all they can do is to just cry?
Yes, they are whom you deride
In order to satisfy your pride.

Nobody tells us what to do here.
It's our choice.
Don't fear -
Sanctioned Suicide is a defender of our voice.

If I'm misunderstanding anything or saying anything offensive please let me know. I'll willing to correct