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happy?1270

happy?1270

Hydrangeas and delphiniums @ my funeral
Mar 11, 2020
111
Vent bro I think I got the last A****n bag of SN and my parents caught me taking it to my room. Stressful talk and shit dad dumped it down the toilet. Fuck man now it's no longer available on a****n and I'm never gonna get out of here. Fuck I just wanna die I'm never gonna be happy and I'm never gonna forgive them bye for now cuz imma b high watch any sec bye.
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,471
Well, so sorry about that for you. But, THANKS A LOT for buying the LAST BAG and then having it wasted, so that WE can't get anymore. THANKS A LOT! :angry:


Just kidding. :wink:
 
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Shu

Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
2,487
Vent bro I think I got the last A****n bag of SN and my parents caught me taking it to my room. Stressful talk and shit dad dumped it down the toilet. Fuck man now it's no longer available on a****n and I'm never gonna get out of here. Fuck I just wanna die I'm never gonna be happy and I'm never gonna forgive them bye for now cuz imma b high watch any sec bye.
How did they know what it was for
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
524
I'd hate to see my SN confiscated and wasted. I don't think other people can always understand how having a method around can sometimes be the only peace of mind we can get. I don't know how people cope without such, at my worst I at least hope I can fall back on hanging. There are other sources but I feel you on how hard it is plus it might be more obvious what it is from other sources and now your dad knows to be watchful of what you get. That's a really frustrating situation you're in. Best wishes whatever you decide to do.
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,471
No you weren't :wink:
Now, now, now. Sure I was. But, if i were at a point right now, where my method was decided on, and nearing that time, I might be a little more "concerned" if I were about to take the plunge and jump all in on the SN method. I'm not there, though. There'll be more, I'm sure, if that time ever comes. :heh:
 
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its-about-time

nope
Mar 19, 2022
807
He flushed it down the toilet 😳😳 uh oh.

I'd be pissed too if mine was confiscated. I live alone so not gonna be bothered by anyone but it's why I tell absolutely nobody in real life what I sleep with under my pillow… I hide it anyways during the day, just in case a friend comes over, but I just like to sleep with it next to me.
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,471
He flushed it down the toilet 😳😳 uh oh.

I'd be pissed too if mine was confiscated. I live alone so not gonna be bothered by anyone but it's why I tell absolutely nobody in real life what I sleep with under my pillow… I hide it anyways during the day, just in case a friend comes over, but I just like to sleep with it next to me.
Sort of like a Teddy Bear, I guess. :blarg:
 
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its-about-time

nope
Mar 19, 2022
807
Sort of like a Teddy Bear, I guess. :blarg:
It's my little grim reaper in a bag lol. I have a tattoo of him on my arm too. The flash art was him holding a noose but I asked the artist to change it to him giving the "rock on" sign. Always wanted another one of him on my back crawling up over my shoulder. Thought that was symbolic. Anyways yeah it's nice to cuddle lol it's really comforting to have in my hands.
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,471
It's my little grim reaper in a bag lol. I have a tattoo of him on my arm too. The flash art was him holding a noose but I asked the artist to change it to him giving the "rock on" sign. Always wanted another one of him on my back crawling up over my shoulder. Thought that was symbolic. Anyways yeah it's nice to cuddle lol it's really comforting to have in my hands.
Is that where you keep you "stash" of ctb stuff, too?
 
its-about-time

its-about-time

nope
Mar 19, 2022
807
Is that where you keep you "stash" of ctb stuff, too?
Nah. Pre meds are all in the medicine cabinet because it's all stuff I have anyways. I took the benzo half an hour or so ago and just grabbed my anti emetic. My SN is still under the pillow, not convinced I'm gonna grab it yet or not but we're seeing!! Lol. I do have another stash of stuff to make an exit bag up in one of the cupboards in a paper bag. I never made it though just bought the materials. Discovered SN halfway through setting up the nitrogen setup.
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,471
Nah. Pre meds are all in the medicine cabinet because it's all stuff I have anyways. I took the benzo half an hour or so ago and just grabbed my anti emetic. My SN is still under the pillow, not convinced I'm gonna grab it yet or not but we're seeing!! Lol. I do have another stash of stuff to make an exit bag up in one of the cupboards in a paper bag. I never made it though just bought the materials. Discovered SN halfway through setting up the nitrogen setup.
Yeah, I've been reading about the exit bag method. What worries me about that method is that it's easy to just rip it off if you change your mind. I think I'd prefer something I can't back out of so easily.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,615
I understand why you would be so angry. It is your life and your decision and nobody else should have any say in it. It seems as though many people do not respect the right to die. It is cruel to try and force people to live against their wishes. I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point and I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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sadpinky

Stargazer
Jun 10, 2021
202
I'm sorry this happened to you.

But side note: Is no one concerned about what dumping this down the toilet might do to their local environment?
 
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Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
2,487
I'm sorry this happened to you.

But side note: Is no one concerned about what dumping this down the toilet might do to their local environment?
Will just turn everything into smurfs. No worries.
 
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lecyleclec

Disastrous Enby
May 5, 2022
36
Vent bro I think I got the last A****n bag of SN and my parents caught me taking it to my room. Stressful talk and shit dad dumped it down the toilet. Fuck man now it's no longer available on a****n and I'm never gonna get out of here. Fuck I just wanna die I'm never gonna be happy and I'm never gonna forgive them bye for now cuz imma b high watch any sec bye.
I actually just got SN from there a couple days ago and I ordered it last week. Haven't tested it yet but it seems legit. Was quite pricey tho
 
Shu

Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
2,487
I actually just got SN from there a couple days ago and I ordered it last week. Haven't tested it yet but it seems legit. Was quite pricey tho
I thought it was all removed. Odd.
 
lecyleclec

lecyleclec

Disastrous Enby
May 5, 2022
36
I thought it was all removed. Odd.
It appears to still be on the site. I can DM a link for anyone interested.
 
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Rogue Proxy

Enlightened
Sep 12, 2021
1,315
It's my little grim reaper in a bag lol. I have a tattoo of him on my arm too. The flash art was him holding a noose but I asked the artist to change it to him giving the "rock on" sign. Always wanted another one of him on my back crawling up over my shoulder. Thought that was symbolic. Anyways yeah it's nice to cuddle lol it's really comforting to have in my hands.
Is your little grim reaper named Gregg?


@happy?1270 I'm terribly sorry that sperm donator berated you and destroyed your chance to escape. It's bad enough that he dragged you into existence without your consent and only for his selfish motives. I hope you can find another peaceful and effective exit when you're ready to take your leave.
 

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