
Tintypographer
I am done as of 4-21-2023. Somewhere I am no more
- Apr 29, 2020
- 470
I never asked to be born. I don't think anyone did. I never wanted to be part of this grinder, I never asked to be a consumer. I had a friend at church tell.me that we are meant to suffer while on earth to have everlasting life in heaven. I feel like I would rather have never existed at all. No past, no suffering, no future. I didn't create this set of rules, I never wanted to be in this reality and I don't want to reframe it and change my view of it. That's now what I want. I want to go back in time and change my choices. If not that then I don't want to exist now or forever.
Sometimes I see that the stigma with suicide is that the world needs people who are not successful or leaders to follow those who are. If the followers decided to take their own lives there would be no more workers, no more people to adore or ensure that work gets done or to act as the masses. Sometimes I think the single biggest fear of leadership is that the followers simply stop caring. They stop showing up, they stop even being concerned. If suicide is the ultimate in not caring it explains why so many abhor it. That freedom is the very last thing you can't take away from someone.
Sometimes I see that the stigma with suicide is that the world needs people who are not successful or leaders to follow those who are. If the followers decided to take their own lives there would be no more workers, no more people to adore or ensure that work gets done or to act as the masses. Sometimes I think the single biggest fear of leadership is that the followers simply stop caring. They stop showing up, they stop even being concerned. If suicide is the ultimate in not caring it explains why so many abhor it. That freedom is the very last thing you can't take away from someone.