NOBODY

[nothingnobody]

is anyone here an absolute npc?

i dont mean an npc as in, holds the basic political views that are being pushed by the media at the time, watches netflix movies or similar streaming services, plays video games like valorant and browses instagram.

i mean has no political views or opinions on anything, period, has no hobbies, even passing interests, cannot say anything about anything that hasnt already been said because you dont care enough to say anything about anything, plays no video games because nothing out there is good enough to be worth it etc.

is anyone like this? how do i become a human being? there is simply nothing i like or care to do, nothing that hasnt been thought or done already and nothing that wont be done by someone else anyways. i feel like this is an issue that goes much deeper than something like depression or a dissociative disorder. i feel like this is a line of thought that is only possible in the modern age. there is nothing i can read that i havent already had a conclusion of in the abstract, even if i cannot communicate that, nothing i can do that i dont already know how it feels, no reason to talk to others or be around others. i dont understand why all humans do not think like this or maybe they simply choose to ignore it. its not something im sad or upset over, it just is. i dont think killing myself is viable because in my eyes i am already dead but that does not matter to me either. hopefully this doesnt sound overly angsty or cringeworthy but its something i think about alot but cannot seem to effectively communicate in any form either.

 

[aGoodDayToDie]

Yeah I stopped doing photography once everybody had phone cameras. Every photo possible has been taken. I don't play video games, it's just mindless crap, effort to reach goals that achieve nothing. There's no point. No purpose. In this world of 8 billion people, no-one is particularly unique, nothing most of us can do is particularly special.

However I certainly do hold strong political beliefs. Firstly, fuck the rich. Who the fuck needs that much money? Second, fuck the cunts that keep us here. What fucking right do they have to tell us what we shouldn't do with our bodies? Who the fuck gives them the right to say that what we say we want is invalid???

But I don't really have any hobbies either. Life is fucking tedious. So God damned boring. Very few things interest me at all and nothing interests me much. As a result of that plus little intelligence and no motivation I do nothing with my life. I'm wasting away. Slowly. Painfully.

 

[nothingnobody]

Yeah I stopped doing photography once everybody had phone cameras. Every photo possible has been taken. I don't play video games, it's just mindless crap, effort to reach goals that achieve nothing. There's no point. No purpose. In this world of 8 billion people, no-one is particularly unique, nothing most of us can do is particularly special.

However I certainly do hold strong political beliefs. Firstly, fuck the rich. Who the fuck needs that much money? Second, fuck the cunts that keep us here. What fucking right do they have to tell us what we shouldn't do with our bodies? Who the fuck gives them the right to say that what we say we want is invalid???

But I don't really have any hobbies either. Life is fucking tedious. So God damned boring. Very few things interest me at all and nothing interests me much. As a result of that plus little intelligence and no motivation I do nothing with my life. I'm wasting away. Slowly. Painfully.

im post-boredom, beyond the point of boredom to the point where boredom is a type of entertainment to me, so i no longer get bored. i dont understand why it matters if the rich have money, its not like there is much to do with it anyways at that point, buy material things for yourself and maybe push an idea on a country that really does not matter and only affects people in thought. so it does not matter at all. im not sure where any of this is going.

 

[aGoodDayToDie]

im post-boredom, beyond the point of boredom to the point where boredom is a type of entertainment to me, so i no longer get bored. i dont understand why it matters if the rich have money, its not like there is much to do with it anyways at that point, buy material things for yourself and maybe push an idea on a country that really does not matter and only affects people in thought. so it does not matter at all. im not sure where any of this is going.

Money would help. I could try better treatments in more liberal countries. I could afford euthanasia. I could live in a house that isn't falling apart, I could live comfortably with heating and air-conditioning, I could do drugs to make myself feel better