Yuja
Student
- May 6, 2026
- 31
is it because of the way I come off? Is it because people think I'm childish or immature? Why does nobody want to tell me anything lol
My dad's wife (not my mom, he cheated on his wife with my mom) passed away earlier this month due to pancreatic cancer and nobody bothered to tell me until yesterday lol. not even my own brother. nobody takes me seriously. i mean, this always happens so i thought i was used to it but apparently not. its like im always kept in the dark all the time. whether it be about someone having a crush, dating someone, someone dying, or ANYTHING ELSE. NOBODY EVER BOTHERS TO TELL ME. i fucking hate it i hate myself and i want to fucking end it all im not some fucking child. this is why ive closed myself off from my family. this is why i barely even bother to contact them anymore. fuck my life lol nobody has ever ACTUALLY gave a fuck about me. if they have, its out of pity or because theyre forced to acknowledge i exist out of fucking principle. nobody wants to be around me nobody wants to genuinely talk to me and try to get to know me. nobody is interested in anything i do. i fucking hate everyone who approaches me because i know they dont give a fuck about me. whenever im approached by a classmate or acquaintance they always ask questions about stuff they shouldnt know about me unless theyve heard it from other people like "oh how's x or y going" and its some bullshit ive only told like one person? like, bitch, im not fucking telling you because it seems like you already fucking know. its like they ask me the most retarded fucking questions for the sake of hitting up small talk because they dont know how to fucking talk to me. like, idk, maybe fucking ask me something interesting? like, how have you been doing or are you interested in any sports or like did you watch the game. but noooooooo they assume i only know fucking lollipops and fucking rainbows. i want to fucking punt them in the goddamn fucking face. fuck.
My dad's wife (not my mom, he cheated on his wife with my mom) passed away earlier this month due to pancreatic cancer and nobody bothered to tell me until yesterday lol. not even my own brother. nobody takes me seriously. i mean, this always happens so i thought i was used to it but apparently not. its like im always kept in the dark all the time. whether it be about someone having a crush, dating someone, someone dying, or ANYTHING ELSE. NOBODY EVER BOTHERS TO TELL ME. i fucking hate it i hate myself and i want to fucking end it all im not some fucking child. this is why ive closed myself off from my family. this is why i barely even bother to contact them anymore. fuck my life lol nobody has ever ACTUALLY gave a fuck about me. if they have, its out of pity or because theyre forced to acknowledge i exist out of fucking principle. nobody wants to be around me nobody wants to genuinely talk to me and try to get to know me. nobody is interested in anything i do. i fucking hate everyone who approaches me because i know they dont give a fuck about me. whenever im approached by a classmate or acquaintance they always ask questions about stuff they shouldnt know about me unless theyve heard it from other people like "oh how's x or y going" and its some bullshit ive only told like one person? like, bitch, im not fucking telling you because it seems like you already fucking know. its like they ask me the most retarded fucking questions for the sake of hitting up small talk because they dont know how to fucking talk to me. like, idk, maybe fucking ask me something interesting? like, how have you been doing or are you interested in any sports or like did you watch the game. but noooooooo they assume i only know fucking lollipops and fucking rainbows. i want to fucking punt them in the goddamn fucking face. fuck.
