Venting No one will miss me. My life has no value.

[supremelimbo]

I try not to go on social media anymore, but sometimes I find myself back on other sites and I see people who are so talented, and then there's me who's uniquely untalented. I have never created anything (art, writing, or anything) that has created any sort of positive reaction or value. I think how if a certain someone would die, people would be sad or say that the world lost something valuable. But if I died, I would leave behind nothing of value. I feel helplessly useless. I've been depressed for nearly a decade but the whole "not even my hobbies that I have been doing for 6+ years make me feel anything" is a bit new. On one hand I am grateful that I feel like this, because it means I will be able to CTB easier and with less hesitation (when the time comes), but on the other I have so much regret. I am so lazy and my art or writing never improved. My life was pointless. My suffering is pointless. No one knows who I am. At least no one will miss me, but it I'm just so envious of those who will be missed.

 

[Jeebo5021]

Are you absolutely sure you won't be missed? You say your an artist. Have you had it exhibited anywhere? If so, then anyone who has seen your art will miss you, knowing that you will never make any again.
I totally understand that you must be hurting so much if it is indeed the case.

 

[supremelimbo]

Are you absolutely sure you won't be missed? You say your an artist. Have you had it exhibited anywhere? If so, then anyone who has seen your art will miss you, knowing that you will never make any again.
I totally understand that you must be hurting so much if it is indeed the case.

I actually started posting my art online after I made this post. My art is beginner level, so I doubt anyone would miss me. Though I'm not a stranger to lost potential ;