Venting No more booze for me

[bipolar22]

Good news I gotten that nobody's cares about but ill say it anyways because i dont give a fuck : Since I had a bleeding ulcer my Doc told me I can never drink. again. Ever. Or it will rebleed. For the rest of my life .
Finally I hit the ultimate jackpot. Fucking bingo. Now i can enjoy this hell sober forever. Finally im fucking fucked just as i wanted. Laters guy

 

[404BrainNotFound]

Damn that really must suck… I am sorry for your loss

 

[bipolar22]

There's a lot to be appreciated in your sobriety. You will be clear-headed enough to either sort out your life or clearly and successfully end it. I hope that you find peace in whatever you choose.

Thank you. Maybe i can join your monastery if my next hanging attempt fails. Which it will because ill pussy out cause cant have the fucking booze .ugh I need a drink...oh wait.

 

[TBONTB]

Good news I gotten that nobody's cares about but ill say it anyways because i dont give a fuck : Since I had a bleeding ulcer my Doc told me I can never drink. again. Ever. Or it will rebleed. For the rest of my life .
Finally I hit the ultimate jackpot. Fucking bingo. Now i can enjoy this hell sober forever. Finally im fucking fucked just as i wanted. Laters guy

I went through this 25 years ago. At first it was like you are experiencing it...a devastating loss. I didn't know how to live. Within a few months though I started to feel better and be less depressed. I used recovery groups for support, if that's of any interest

 

[bipolar22]

Living with mental illness is the fucking frustrating and unnecessarily difficult. Shit, I forget to eat somedays because my symptoms have me spinning in goddamn circles. Those same symptoms have truly fucked up my life and are the reason why I am on this forum.

I gave up alcohol for a variety of reasons, but mostly to be a better role model for my boys. My father was an active, angry and violent alcoholic and I chose a different path because they deserved the best version of me. There were added benefits like clear-headedness and weight loss.
I am certainly not a monk and definitely not someone who wants to preach. I only responded to your post to hopefully give you a broader perspective.

I hope you find peace in whatever you decide for yourself.

Yes I respect that. But thats you're life not mine. I got sexually abused as a child and if you told me you were raped I wouldn't try to make you see a positive perspective on it becuse jt changed my life for thr better snd gave me the push to leave my abuser. Thats would be very insensitive and lacking the ability to imagine someone else's perspective and just read the room by how I wrote my opening post.

 

[bipolar22]

I went through this 25 years ago. At first it was like you are experiencing it...a devastating loss. I didn't know how to live. Within a few months though I started to feel better and be less depressed. I used recovery groups for support, if that's of any interest

Now im thinking I posted in the recovery forum by accident .
Well im genuinely glad you guys are doing much better. Im kinda trying to kill myself and would hsve liked to spent some more time drunk before that happens so im a bit bummed out but I had 4 xanax so im chill about it already