No matter how many people I meet I will always be alone

[plain_jane]

I meet so many new people and I love them and they are glad to have my love, but sadly they cannot love me. I can see it in their eyes, feel it on their lips. I am not lovable. For a long time I thought even being able to give someone else my love would be enough, but I have realized I truly deeply wanted to be loved. I am under no illusions that death is dignified, but I do think of it regularly. I understand it is a relatively minor thing, but without being truly loved by another person, I'm not sure I want to exist.

 

[mortuarymary]

This is why I stick with dogs. People are false

 

[plain_jane]

This is why I stick with dogs. People are false

sadly I was ingrained with a need for intellectual validation, or else this would work wonders

 

[mortuarymary]

The dogs might not talk back but the looks on their faces says it all

 

[allthatimsaying]

This is so freaking relatable. It's hard when you reach to the conclusion that you are unloveable, me included. In my case, it doesn't even need to be a romantic love, just a friendship kind-of-love. It's hard, but here you may find a lot of people who can love you. What country are you from?

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

Cats don't lie

 

[Silent Raindrops]

I'm the same way. I meet people, but yet, still alone.

 

[Wlfgrl]

I meet so many new people and I love them and they are glad to have my love, but sadly they cannot love me. I can see it in their eyes, feel it on their lips. I am not lovable. For a long time I thought even being able to give someone else my love would be enough, but I have realized I truly deeply wanted to be loved. I am under no illusions that death is dignified, but I do think of it regularly. I understand it is a relatively minor thing, but without being truly loved by another person, I'm not sure I want to exist.

Since grade school I've always felt most of the people in my life to be more acquaintances than friends. People who go to the same job or school or whatever we choose to do with our time. It's hard to find people that you can be comfortable around. Luckily, I know for myself hobbies are an easier tell as to whether I'll get along with someone or not. If we have a common interest or hobby and we can have fun together then it's a step up to me than the people I have to be around for work or whatever I'm doing.

 

[Kit1]

I am not sure whether I heard this saying or made it up myself, but have always felt - 'I was born alone and will die alone and everything in between is a drama. Some person probably said it and I adopted it without realising, but feels so true.

 

[plain_jane]

This is so freaking relatable. It's hard when you reach to the conclusion that you are unloveable, me included. In my case, it doesn't even need to be a romantic love, just a friendship kind-of-love. It's hard, but here you may find a lot of people who can love you. What country are you from?

America, the midwest

 

[needpeace18]

I meet so many new people and I love them and they are glad to have my love, but sadly they cannot love me. I can see it in their eyes, feel it on their lips. I am not lovable. For a long time I thought even being able to give someone else my love would be enough, but I have realized I truly deeply wanted to be loved. I am under no illusions that death is dignified, but I do think of it regularly. I understand it is a relatively minor thing, but without being truly loved by another person, I'm not sure I want to exist.

I too cannot connect well with folks as a result of a personality disorder. It feels like I'm in my own prison.

 

[drella]

oh ya, i find myself unwilling and unable to connect with anyone. doesn't matter if it's online or person. i don't and will love myself so i can't ask anyone to do that for me. i am basically living as a ghost already, the only thing that remains is to make that a reality.

 

[Napoleon]

I meet so many new people and I love them and they are glad to have my love, but sadly they cannot love me. I can see it in their eyes, feel it on their lips. I am not lovable. For a long time I thought even being able to give someone else my love would be enough, but I have realized I truly deeply wanted to be loved. I am under no illusions that death is dignified, but I do think of it regularly. I understand it is a relatively minor thing, but without being truly loved by another person, I'm not sure I want to exist.

I know that feeling all to well. I read in a metaphysics book recently that the reason for attraction is the need for a complement and when one finds the one that completes them in the ways their soul doesn't, they fall in love at first sight. Maybe you're just surrounded by people with completed souls or souls that do not complete yours, and when you find the one that complements yours perfectly, you will come together like a magnet and steel. Simply some food for thought, I apologize for the rambling.

 

[plain_jane]

I know that feeling all to well. I read in a metaphysics book recently that the reason for attraction is the need for a complement and when one finds the one that completes them in the ways their soul doesn't, they fall in love at first sight. Maybe you're just surrounded by people with completed souls or souls that do not complete yours, and when you find the one that complements yours perfectly, you will come together like a magnet and steel. Simply some food for thought, I apologize for the rambling.

Thank you. I will certainly keep trying as long as I am able.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Real connection as an adult is a rare thing. It's like a slow death reminding you that your teen years were the highlight of your life.