Oblivion
Wizard
- Aug 2, 2018
- 634
I have no idea what's happening to me or what's causing it, what is going with me?
i spent my life in extreme misery and depression, but recently i've been feeling weird things.
While i was miserable all the time all my life, there was always a corner of hope in the back of my mind, the hope that somehow something magical would happen that would change my life. i feel like i lost that hope, i feel like it's completely gone. i think that parasitic hope is what kept me alive all these years, consciously i know it's hopeless and i'm a lost cause, but maybe on the subcon i was hopeful.
Now it hits different and everything feels weird, i feel like i lost my youth, it's gone, its never coming back and everything i had hoped i would achieve, is not achievable anymore, and i want to achieve them in my youth. fuck this life. fuck everything. fuck me. fuck life. fuck life. fuck life. fuck life
i spent my life in extreme misery and depression, but recently i've been feeling weird things.
While i was miserable all the time all my life, there was always a corner of hope in the back of my mind, the hope that somehow something magical would happen that would change my life. i feel like i lost that hope, i feel like it's completely gone. i think that parasitic hope is what kept me alive all these years, consciously i know it's hopeless and i'm a lost cause, but maybe on the subcon i was hopeful.
Now it hits different and everything feels weird, i feel like i lost my youth, it's gone, its never coming back and everything i had hoped i would achieve, is not achievable anymore, and i want to achieve them in my youth. fuck this life. fuck everything. fuck me. fuck life. fuck life. fuck life. fuck life
