No hope

[Flying Away]

Everything I'm given a sense of hope it is swiftly taken away. The ups and downs feel worse than anything else I have experienced. I've tried so many methods over the past 40 years. Failure after failure. Looking back I see the mistakes I made. Today I know I have the right method. This method almost succeeded in January. It would have done if I hadn't been discovered. I need something solid and real but hope one day is dashed the next. Someone somewhere in this universe either kill me or help me. Sadly no one is there to listen to me. I am on my own with my final thoughts over the next couple of days. Sinking further into darkness until the end. One person could stop this but they are confused. One minute hope next they pull it away. I can't wait any longer. I really wanted to live but death is the only way to give those I love peace and happiness. So for them this weekend I will depart. I'd like to talk to someone but no one understands. Those who do won't talk to me. Final run unto the void. Death is the only adventure left.

 

[Flying Away]

And I just managed to get it wrong again. Final kick for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life is very sad and it is unfair how people suffer so much in this life. I think that having hope often just leads to more pain which is why I am glad to have none. I wish you peace and relief from what you have to endure.

 

[Flying Away]

Life is very sad and it is unfair how people suffer so much in this life. I think that having hope often just leads to more pain which is why I am glad to have none. I wish you peace and relief from what you have to endure.

Only my family can bring me peace apart from death

 

[Alive4now]

Life is very sad and it is unfair how people suffer so much in this life. I think that having hope often just leads to more pain which is why I am glad to have none. I wish you peace and relief from what you have to endure.

I'm a new member of SS. For 3 days I've been reading posts. I need to tell you, I admire you for the compassion in your comments. You show everyone respect when they are making the hardest/easiest decision in their life. You never gaslight or question their sanity. Your comments to others have made me feel some peace. Thank you for being so understanding & compassionate. I wish peace & relief for you too.

 

[Flying Away]

I'm a new member of SS. For 3 days I've been reading posts. I need to tell you, I admire you for the compassion in your comments. You show everyone respect when they are making the hardest/easiest decision in their life. You never gaslight or question their sanity. Your comments to others have made me feel some peace. Thank you for being so understanding & compassionate. I wish peace & relief for you too.

Thank you.

 

[Spyro24]

Sorry to hear that. I do hope that you find peace. I am always available if you want to talk. I cannot promise that I will understand your situation but I am always there to listen if you like.

 

[Flying Away]

Sorry to hear that. I do hope that you find peace. I am always available if you want to talk. I cannot promise that I will understand your situation but I am always there to listen if you like.

Thank you but I think it's too late now. Some point tomorrow it has to end.