Venting No goals

[anonymousfoxxo]

I don't want to add anything long. I'm too tired. I just wanted to write something to give a slight life sign. I'm still here, still suffering in silence. Today during a talk, I realized I have absolutely no goals in life, and when I tried to think of some to make it my goals, I failed. I don't care about anything. Nothing makes me feel like it's worth it. Everything is monochrome. There's nothing that makes me want to do something. I just exist to exist. And I hope not for long.

For a second I felt like things are getting better but I am foolish to think so, with the memory of a goldfish of the past.

 

[Timothy7dff]

Effort is pointless. I put in full-time work, full-time school. Got up at 7am. Didn't get home until 9:30pm. Read and studied weekends. Did that for years. Saved up $25,000 in cash. I radically changed my diet and lost 60 pounds. I was pharmaceutical-free for months. It took the deep state a few months to destroy everything.

Nazis run the world and they love to maximize suffering in individual lives. They get off on it. Sick, evil people.

As someone who went through hell to turn his life around, I can tell you that it's not worth it. Evil jackazzes lurk around every corner.

 

[creirwy]

I don't want to add anything long. I'm too tired. I just wanted to write something to give a slight life sign. I'm still here, still suffering in silence. Today during a talk, I realized I have absolutely no goals in life, and when I tried to think of some to make it my goals, I failed. I don't care about anything.

I feel the same way, but I do think that goals aren't necessarily important to have. I know everyone always talks about their goals and what they want to achieve in life but can't it be fine to not have that expectation and keep things small?
Maybe we can just try to live in the moment for once and try to enjoy things, even if they're meaningless to others, even if it's just rotting in bed.

 

[Kadaver]

I don't want to add anything long. I'm too tired. I just wanted to write something to give a slight life sign. I'm still here, still suffering in silence. Today during a talk, I realized I have absolutely no goals in life, and when I tried to think of some to make it my goals, I failed. I don't care about anything. Nothing makes me feel like it's worth it. Everything is monochrome. There's nothing that makes me want to do something. I just exist to exist. And I hope not for long.

For a second I felt like things are getting better but I am foolish to think so, with the memory of a goldfish of the past.

This resonates with me so hard. I'm very similar. When I was a kid I used to have fleeting dreams of being a doctor or a lawyer when I grew up. Then as my mental health worsted in my teens those fell away and I started to devote myself to my art. Then about two years ago I fell into a deep state of art block that has yet to leave me. I have no motivation to draw and it makes me so sad that something that used to ease my pain is just…gone. Now I have nothing. I don't want to own my own house. I don't want my own car. I don't want to work at some bs dead-end job, or any job at all really. I feel like I've been just drifting through life aimlessly while everyone else seems to have a path that they're following.

I just want to find somewhere I belong where I can be happy and loved…

 

[Random Username]

This resonates with me so hard. I'm very similar. When I was a kid I used to have fleeting dreams of being a doctor or a lawyer when I grew up. Then as my mental health worsted in my teens those fell away and I started to devote myself to my art. Then about two years ago I fell into a deep state of art block that has yet to leave me. I have no motivation to draw and it makes me so sad that something that used to ease my pain is just…gone. Now I have nothing. I don't want to own my own house. I don't want my own car. I don't want to work at some bs dead-end job, or any job at all really. I feel like I've been just drifting through life aimlessly while everyone else seems to have a path that they're following.

I just want to find somewhere I belong where I can be happy and loved…

Couldn't have said it better myself. Goals just faded away as I got older.

 

[anonymousfoxxo]

This resonates with me so hard. I'm very similar. When I was a kid I used to have fleeting dreams of being a doctor or a lawyer when I grew up. Then as my mental health worsted in my teens those fell away and I started to devote myself to my art. Then about two years ago I fell into a deep state of art block that has yet to leave me. I have no motivation to draw and it makes me so sad that something that used to ease my pain is just…gone. Now I have nothing. I don't want to own my own house. I don't want my own car. I don't want to work at some bs dead-end job, or any job at all really. I feel like I've been just drifting through life aimlessly while everyone else seems to have a path that they're following.

I just want to find somewhere I belong where I can be happy and loved…

This is exactly how I am right now too. Word by word.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also feel so tired of suffering here and just wish to cease existing, personally I find existing undesirable in general. But anyway I wish you all the best, I hope you find peace.

 

[permanently tired]

Would it be worse to have no goals are ones that are sky-high? I'm not doing it for purpose, it's just a final thing I'm trying and whether or not it works out won't affect my decision. Although, it might delay that decision by a few years