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LifeIsASadist

LifeIsASadist

This world is disgusting
Oct 16, 2024
309
I don't have any IRL friends, my closest friend is a guy from Honduras that I intend to meet IRL if I don't CTB but thats long ways away because some stupid Honduran law mandates you to be 21 to fly alone. Don't even get me started on never having a gf either.
 
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Defect

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Dec 31, 2024
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i feel you. i am heavy disabled since very young age. i have 1irl but he lives in other city now. has wife and child so we dont have as much contact as before. me myself i never had gf and any romantic relationship
 
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darksouls

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May 10, 2025
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I am very sorry for your situation
would it be possible for your friend to visit you?
 
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Grog

Grog

I am a defect.
Jun 3, 2025
499
I have a couple "friends" who are good people, but we don't have much in common at all. I don't have a "best friend" or anyone like that; IRL nor online. I don't feel particularly odd, but from my perspective, that's always the role I get placed in in any sort of social group -- the odd one out. I think my hobbies and interests are really neat, but I guess most others don't think so? I feel like I can never relate to anyone and that I have nothing in common with anyone. Or, if I do so happen to find people with similar interests, they already have their own little clique or circle, so they don't want to be friends with anyone else.

I wish I had a best friend.
 
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darksouls

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May 10, 2025
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my beloved pets were the only friends I had in my life
 
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cemeteryismyhome

Paragon
Mar 15, 2025
971
I wish, and don't wish at the same time, that you could feel like I do now about friends. It used to hurt from time to time when I was younger. Now I don't even want friends, I want to be alone and distant from others. I think it's like when someone can't move one of their limbs for a long time, it wastes away. I think my friendship department wasted away due to lack of activity. Now I don't care. But since you are in a situation where you do want friends, I hope you find something. Ideally, everyone should have friends. The thing with Honduras is probably to protect younger people from human trafficking, would be my guess.
... I don't feel particularly odd, but from my perspective, that's always the role I get placed in in any sort of social group -- the odd one out. ...
I came to the same conclusion about myself, and have even told people that, as a pre-emptive warning. I like to think it's an evolutionary thing. A few outliers help the tribe survive I guess.
 
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Haibane-renmei-reki

Student
Jan 23, 2020
198
I don't have any IRL friends, my closest friend is a guy from Honduras that I intend to meet IRL if I don't CTB but thats long ways away because some stupid Honduran law mandates you to be 21 to fly alone. Don't even get me started on never having a gf either.
same, same, I never had a friend I.R.L before.
 
LifeIsASadist

LifeIsASadist

This world is disgusting
Oct 16, 2024
309
I am very sorry for your situation
would it be possible for your friend to visit you?
Yes but he would need written permission from his abusive mom and not only that, he would have to explain to his mom why he needs to visit some internet friend IRL
 
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tulero

Student
Mar 20, 2025
100
losing friends is part of adult life

back then when I started university I made a small group of friends which I spent 4 years with studying, people you could count on to make you a favor, etc.

but after some years you lose contact with them as if nothing between you and them ever happened

whether you like it or not, thats the real life
 
LifeIsASadist

LifeIsASadist

This world is disgusting
Oct 16, 2024
309
losing friends is part of adult life

back then when I started university I made a small group of friends which I spent 4 years with studying, people you could count on to make you a favor, etc.
Havent even had a friend in my teen years.
but after some years you lose contact with them as if nothing between you and them ever happened

whether you like it or not, thats the real life
 
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tulero

Student
Mar 20, 2025
100
Havent even had a friend in my teen years.
sorry to ear that

but at the end we have no friends, just a bunch of people we have some interests in common and we decide to keep them near. And our paths tend to diverge as time goes and new responsabilities emerge

probably the concept of friendship is no longer a real thing in this world
 
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Ferret77

Member
Jun 2, 2023
90
I don't have any IRL friends, my closest friend is a guy from Honduras that I intend to meet IRL if I don't CTB but thats long ways away because some stupid Honduran law mandates you to be 21 to fly alone. Don't even get me started on never having a gf either.
Err...Im probably a little late, but yeah, I literally dont have any close irl friends either. My closest friend is also someone Ive never seen before and she lives on another continent, and theres no way I can meet her in the near future. Often I get really depressed by the fact, that I dont have anyone to talk to, except her. If you wanna talk, my dms are openđź–¤
 
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Terminonaris

New Member
Jun 17, 2025
4
I can relate. I used to have friends and a social life. Then I became disabled and my life was consumed by chronic pain and chronic GI issues. No one likes being your friend when you're disabled. I have exactly one friend, I've never met her irl either and mostly we just send videos to each other. I don't have anyone I can just talk to.

I guess tbe one thing about having extreme chronic GI issues is that sooner rather than later my heart will give out. I cant eat anything anymore without suffering immensely so most days I barely eat anything. And while it sucks slowly starving to death idk at least I know my suffering has an expiration date and that I won't live to my 90s with these awful chronic illnesses.
 

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