Venting nights are so hard

[autumn68]

no matter how normal or even good i manage to feel during the day i always end up miserable the second i'm alone with my thoughts. i feel like i can't make it a single night without drugs, alcohol, or cutting because i genuinely am just incapable of being alone with my thoughts. it feels like no matter how much progress i make in my life or how much i work on myself it never gets better. i think i'm just doomed to feel like this until i die

 

[certainty]

unfortunately i don't have any solutions but i heavily relate. hope knowing you're not alone in that eases the burden in some small way, sending you well wishes

 

[Hibiki]

hello. i understand you, but maybe not as extremely. i feel for you and wish it were easier. i don't know if you've already tried it, but on nights that are less bearable i let music or youtube videos play while trying to fall asleep. for music it is typically classical, while for youtube it can range from "educational" content (veritasium, numberphile, etc.) to old vtuber streams. it can serve as background noise/a distraction, but if it affects your ability to sleep, i understand.

 

[ManOfTheYear]

Waiting to pass out is one of the most uncomfortable dreads. Nothing to do, no one to talk to, just sitting in silence, doom scrolling, crying, thinking about death over and over. Every night for the rest of my life. Dumb right?

 

[EmptyBottle]

Some things that may help, include music and drawing (on paper or electronically). For me I like NCS music and some top songs from 2025 and 2023, saved for offline listening. As for drawing, been months or longer since I last drew stuff.

 

[unregisteredseaurch]

i deal with this on a nightly basis. even if the day was great and i spent it with people i enjoy. i can't help but succumb to my thoughts. it also doeen't help that i get triggered very easily, and then once its late i realize i've spent a couple hours straight on SHP or lurking here, or some other related forum. sigh