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Sep 21, 2025
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All week I felt calm when thinking of buying a gun on Saturday. Then the day comes and I couch rot, my stomach in knots, which become painful. I was exhausted from not sleeping well all week but took a seroquel to knock me out.
Woke up at 4 convinced I had once been told I have early signs of cancer in my heart and lungs. But I had never done anything about it. I panicked. Logged into mychart and was looking through all my results looking for it. A nightmare, but I was convinced it was true.

This went on for a while. Hours. Why? So many reasons I'm here. I'm done. It's over. Why this pain? Why do nightmares exist? Life has too many terrors I can't take it anymore
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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Two more nightmares last night. I've had more in the last six months than I did my whole life. Nothing is a relief. I need to end this
 
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If dreams are your problem try to get your hands on weed and use it before bedtime. Many users don't dream anymore. Less REM sleep and and you will be less likely to remember it if you dream.
 

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