new year

[jellyfish11]

it's been so many years since first started thinking about suicide and it has unfortunately been another where i have wimped out at any chance i got. the new year is supposed to bring hope etc but i'm just entering 2026 with even more regrets than last year. it feels like getting to ctb is the thing i really want most of all and yet i have been to scared to finally do it. 2026 will finally be my year and i will finally make it out. wishing everybody on this forum a happy new year and luck in their endeavors <3

 

[maylurker]

it's been so many years since first started thinking about suicide and it has unfortunately been another where i have wimped out at any chance i got. the new year is supposed to bring hope etc but i'm just entering 2026 with even more regrets than last year. it feels like getting to ctb is the thing i really want most of all and yet i have been to scared to finally do it. 2026 will finally be my year and i will finally make it out. wishing everybody on this forum a happy new year and luck in their endeavors <3

thank you. happy ny

 

[Mint Floss]

Happy New Year, however it goes

 

[FuneralCry]

It's not happy, it's just dreadful terrible suffering, to suffer in this painful, cruel and deeply undesirable existence truly is an abomination and I see it as so terrible to suffer in this existence for another year, every second is torture to exist, all I want is the peace of non-existence to solve everything for me, I just want peace from this torturous existence that was so tragically imposed, all that existence does is just cause pain and suffering, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[catsalvation]

it's been so many years since first started thinking about suicide and it has unfortunately been another where i have wimped out at any chance i got. the new year is supposed to bring hope etc but i'm just entering 2026 with even more regrets than last year. it feels like getting to ctb is the thing i really want most of all and yet i have been to scared to finally do it. 2026 will finally be my year and i will finally make it out. wishing everybody on this forum a happy new year and luck in their endeavors <3

There's a high chance this will be my last year too. I wish CTB wasn't this complicated. Anyway. I can relate the feeling of regret. And in my case, hopelessness. As I'm getting older, that last bit of hope left me, you know this thought that "ok, now everything is crap, but I'm still young, anything can happen, the future can be brighter". I don't feel like that anymore, my life slips away, and my dreams didn't come true.
But I wish all of us a happier new year whatever it means