I tried ending my life from 2014-2016 I first drink 23 sleeping pills and stopped breathing, my ex husband kept me alive by feeding me food and giving me something to drink and got me to breath again after I would stop he did that all night long to keep me alive. I had a gun but didn't have the guts to kill myself in bathtub and I was scared it wouldn't kill me bc it was really small. Then I stopped for min and got with this guy and got hooked on Xanax and drinking really bad but all I wanted to do was die still. So next I shoot up half bottle of insulin and by ex bf got off work just in time to save me, by time they made it I already wet the bed which means my organs started to shut down. They said if he didn't come home when he did I would died that time...then I stayed high on Xanax and drunk for long time and really didn't try anymore and just would drink all of pills and then that relationship ended and I wanted to hang myself but bc I am so shot I couldn't get in the tree I wanted it to be long drop so my neck would break and that be it. Ditched that idea and went on and cut my neck about got my main artery, doctor said I was just inces away from it. That did work so I decided I was going to burn my house down and burn to death if smoke didn't get me first. Well the fire department are pretty good about saving people so they pulled
Me out. So that didn't work and it got me into legal trouble. Got 3 years probation for that. So next I decided I was going to shot up herion and go out like that I read it was peaceful and pain free way to pass. So I met the dealer just by accident at a store and exchanged numbers and I got the money and call him and he picked me up. Went over to his place fixed me up. Hit the vains, both times and Wes gone. I don't remember nothing until I woke in icu on life support. Every attempt I got saved and it made me so angry and I finally just gave up its been 5 years and I've not tried again. But I sure I'm thinking about it. I hate this life. And my choice would to be get some fentanyl bc it's stronger and inject it and make sure no one can find me this time. Anyways this is my story.. really glad to be here.
Me out. So that didn't work and it got me into legal trouble. Got 3 years probation for that. So next I decided I was going to shot up herion and go out like that I read it was peaceful and pain free way to pass. So I met the dealer just by accident at a store and exchanged numbers and I got the money and call him and he picked me up. Went over to his place fixed me up. Hit the vains, both times and Wes gone. I don't remember nothing until I woke in icu on life support. Every attempt I got saved and it made me so angry and I finally just gave up its been 5 years and I've not tried again. But I sure I'm thinking about it. I hate this life. And my choice would to be get some fentanyl bc it's stronger and inject it and make sure no one can find me this time. Anyways this is my story.. really glad to be here.
