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lovelylaura

lovelylaura

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Aug 28, 2025
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This week I tried to ctb using coal briquettes in two large pans inside a small kitchen. But failed because I discovered a small spot that I hadnt sealed, even tho I used wet towels on the gap under the door.
I do remember feeling, for a few seconds, so relieved, in full peace. I felt like I was about to leave and just let go. It feels wrong to say this, but I think it was one of the happiest moments in my life. After failing I just felt so frustrated and dissapointed.
But later on, my heart started pounding really fast for some time until nothing happened. I just left the room and cleared everything up so I didn't get caught.
I had been in that room for 4 hours, maybe more time and reassuring that the least amount of CO escapes from it could help me be succesful.
I would be very grateful to have some advice, or if someone wants to share their experiences or thoughts. I've already red the CO monoxide megathread

Also, sorry for my bad english.
Hope we can all reach peace someday
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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I'm sorry you have to suffer like that, trying to cease existing going wrong is what I fear, I always wish there's the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer again, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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homeboundcripple

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Jun 6, 2025
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This week I tried to ctb using coal briquettes in two large pans inside a small kitchen. But failed because I discovered a small spot that I hadnt sealed, even tho I used wet towels on the gap under the door.
I do remember feeling, for a few seconds, so relieved, in full peace. I felt like I was about to leave and just let go. It feels wrong to say this, but I think it was one of the happiest moments in my life. After failing I just felt so frustrated and dissapointed.
But later on, my heart started pounding really fast for some time until nothing happened. I just left the room and cleared everything up so I didn't get caught.
I had been in that room for 4 hours, maybe more time and reassuring that the least amount of CO escapes from it could help me be succesful.
I would be very grateful to have some advice, or if someone wants to share their experiences or thoughts. I've already red the CO monoxide megathread

Also, sorry for my bad english.
Hope we can all reach peace someday
How much kg did you use?
 
lovelylaura

lovelylaura

New Member
Aug 28, 2025
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How much kg did you use?
3 kg, is not that much but my kitchen is really small and hardly ventilated so symptoms came relatively fast.
I'm sorry you have to suffer like that, trying to cease existing going wrong is what I fear, I always wish there's the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer again, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
Thank you so much, I wish the same for you
 
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homeboundcripple

Student
Jun 6, 2025
109
double or triple the amount, duck tape around doors/window frames. Blocked off the hop extractor if you have one. even tape kitchen sinks plug holes.
 
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