
lovelylaura
New Member
- Aug 28, 2025
- 3
This week I tried to ctb using coal briquettes in two large pans inside a small kitchen. But failed because I discovered a small spot that I hadnt sealed, even tho I used wet towels on the gap under the door.
I do remember feeling, for a few seconds, so relieved, in full peace. I felt like I was about to leave and just let go. It feels wrong to say this, but I think it was one of the happiest moments in my life. After failing I just felt so frustrated and dissapointed.
But later on, my heart started pounding really fast for some time until nothing happened. I just left the room and cleared everything up so I didn't get caught.
I had been in that room for 4 hours, maybe more time and reassuring that the least amount of CO escapes from it could help me be succesful.
I would be very grateful to have some advice, or if someone wants to share their experiences or thoughts. I've already red the CO monoxide megathread
Also, sorry for my bad english.
Hope we can all reach peace someday
I do remember feeling, for a few seconds, so relieved, in full peace. I felt like I was about to leave and just let go. It feels wrong to say this, but I think it was one of the happiest moments in my life. After failing I just felt so frustrated and dissapointed.
But later on, my heart started pounding really fast for some time until nothing happened. I just left the room and cleared everything up so I didn't get caught.
I had been in that room for 4 hours, maybe more time and reassuring that the least amount of CO escapes from it could help me be succesful.
I would be very grateful to have some advice, or if someone wants to share their experiences or thoughts. I've already red the CO monoxide megathread
Also, sorry for my bad english.
Hope we can all reach peace someday