ctb★prince
villain otd
- Jul 7, 2023
- 110
i seriously need some new friends, i dont know what that is that makes people im friends with treat me like shit, at first they lightly laugh at how much i trust people and how much i like giving out gifts etc, then they go through a pipeline that i just cant understand and after learning that im in fact suicidal they jump to making jokes about encouraging me to cbt, saying that they will kts as a reaction to things i say, or they straight up tell me that they want me dead, all because they enjoy seeing me panic bc of my autism and ocd, im also not allowed to stand up for myself or joke back became then im suddenly a bad person, i really want to meet some people who arent like this, i like all kinds of music, i like most games, i know a lot of books and movies, i regulary read comics, i draw a lot, i really dont understand why its so hard to find healthy friendships with that, i think im not half bad at masking, i think im weird but not this kind of weird, i don't know what im doing wrong, i dont get it, no matter what i do i just cant fit in its so tiring