It's tough. Sometimes relieved and confident that it will work. Sometimes afraid that I'll fail (it's the SI and I know that). Sometimes so alone and sad that this is how I kept plugging along trying to improve things, with health crap, for 30 damn years. Sad that I'm alone and no one will even know that I'm dead. Thanks for asking.
I really wish there was something I could do to ease your pain.
If there is anything I can do, please let me know.
As you said, you don't know me. I understand that, completely.
My heart just breaks for you.
I hate that you feel so alone.
So please, if there is anything at all that I can do to make your decision a little easier or lighter or whatever, please reach out.
I don't want to bother you, as I know you're dealing with so much right now. So I won't hound you.
Just know I'll do anything I can.
Sending you so much love.