Never understanding those who insist there is hope in existing.

[FuneralCry]

I could never understand that especially as there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence, at any moment existing can easily get way more torturous and unbearable so it makes no sense to me saying that and I don't see what is so hopeful about decaying just to end up all tortured in agony from old age which is all that humans are destined for.

To me existence is the opposite of hopeful rather it is a dreadful, torturous abomination that just causes endless amounts of cruelty, harm and suffering, the only hope for me lies in non-existence, only non-existence is positive to me.

 

[_Gollum_]

Agreed, so long as I exist, I suffer. I wish I had died when I had the chance. I could've avoided so much pain.

 

[Dingusguy]

I can understand people who exist for hope, but I am not one of them. I don't know how people hold on to hope at all, it seems whenever I find it, it just hurts ten times more when I lose it again.

It feels odd to admit that when I stopped looking for hope I felt less conflicted, and now I just sort of rot instead. Not because I want to but because I feel obligated to, because I don't want to hurt those I care about.
People are strange.