Memento Mori
shambling garbage
- Jan 24, 2019
- 573
i blocked him so there will be no more discussion anyways. i wanted to tell people that he's not an expert and they shouldn't fully trust his time specifications since there are people who made it way longer and got found, and i know that not everyone had tolerance from other substances. and i did that, as long as people have read that i got what i wanted. he seems not to feel enough like shit yet since he can throw out such retarded sentences, i would never write such bullshit, no matter if it triggers someone or not. he doesn't even know why i mentioned that this is like talking with my ex, i said we are talking past each other, and i felt again like i just dont belong to this world if there is no possibility for discussion without talking past each other. happens too often, it didn't really happen here on ss yet, we always came to a conclusion, but there's a first time for everything. i wanted to get answers on the points i mentioned about ddutchs posts before, the things i didnt understand and that didnt make sense to me and my posts before, and not some dumb analysis of an excuse that was not even meant for him but for all other people, since ddutch said that i act aggressive i wanted to mention it. same goes for the ex line, from my point of view he doesnt get my point and just wants to talk it away with his experience and knowledge about something that hasnt been researched properly as you can see in rare cases where people survive. and i'm not gonna explain my whole life to everyone of you to make you understand my words, just read the full sentences instead of replying bullshit to hurt other peoples feelings, maybe even read the next sentence too! or more, hell i write a lot to avoid misunderstanding for that reason.
i wasted my last joint discussing here, now i'm going to be sober for two weeks. well, its my own fault that i looked up ss all the time but i wished that at least it was somehow useful to waste the last joy i have for the next time. i have 24hours every day to remind myself that she's better off with her new guy, to remind myself why i am in this situation and that i should just die already instead of trying something unfixable, i don't need support in that by a random person that doesn't know me but feels mature enough to insult me. this reminds me of the police agents who shot a diabetic just because they didn't know what's going on and he had seizures...bad example i know, but if you dont know someone then shut the fuck up if you feel like discussing with me is useless, instead of starting to insult.
€: and just to mention i was not high while discussing, i started smoking when i got that sweet last reply i've read before i answered one last time and blocked him and started to get triggered by crap. i agree that i'm a pussy if this triggers me that easily but i'm not gonna apologize for it because i never write similar words. not even to trolls...that's against the reason why we are here, and i don't want to be part of an insulting community.
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