Need serious advice regarding SN while living with parents.

[celest]

If I decide to go with this method then unfortunately I'll have to do it at home. We're quite a big family so I never get left alone. I have my own room with a lock but they can crash the window and easily come inside. I don't care about my family finding my body, though I'm sure my mom would have an heart attack, I'm too far gone to stress about what will happen after I die. The problem is them finding me before and obviously calling for help. Some otc antiemetics are available where I live as far as I know and if I manage to obtain sn my only concern will be this. Our house is not big either and if I vomit they'll def hear it. Maybe if I do it at night it would possibly keep them from intervening but still there's a risk. I can't go to a hotel or anywhere else public. My only other option is to wait until I'm financially stable and maybe rent my own apartment (Which would take 3-4 years) but ik I would lose my shit and do something impulsive till then. What do you think? Would it be too much of a risk to ctb living with my parents even if it's a poison like sn?

Been on this site for fucking two years and still here we are. I guess god loves to see me in pain.

 

[befree]

Honestly, I would never do it in a place where other people live. Getting a prescription antiemetic and to get SN is not that difficult (depending on the country). But the next problem is receiving a package. It would be best to have the package sent to a pickup station.

 

[Fktw0rld]

My plan is to create a sequence before doing it. Making anyone around me think it's something it isn't. Like oh man, starting to feel like I'm catching something. Ugh. Maybe it was the food I ate. I think I'm getting a stomach virus or something, my stomach hasn't been feeling good lately. Super tired, maybe it's the flu with some stomach issues. I feel like I want to puke, I'm gonna go rest, so on and so forth. Try to normalize everything so people leave you alone and think you're just sick with the flu, some stomach issues or whatever so if you do puke it was kind of expected by that point. If you lay down after puking it's just to rest because you're not feeling good. Shut the door, I need to rest type thing. Build it up for a solid 2 days then make everything seem like nothing out of the ordinary so someone with a stomach bug.

Maybe even pick up some cold and flu OTC meds and leave them beside to sell it. Open 1 up and flush it so it looks like you're taking them.

Shit they may even leave you alone just so they don't catch what they think you have.

Love and respect

Ps. I'm not saying to do this. I'm just telling you want I'm gonna do.

 

[celest]

I'm not sure what a parcel is? How is getting the package sent to a pickup station gonna be any different than having it sent to my home (it's legal in my country)

Honestly, I would never do it in a place where other people live. Getting a prescription antiemetic and to get SN is not that difficult (depending on the country). But the next problem is receiving a parcel. It would be best to have the package sent to a pickup station.

My plan is to create a sequence before doing it. Making anyone around me think it's something it isn't. Like oh man, starting to feel like I'm catching something. Ugh. Maybe it was the food I ate. I think I'm getting a stomach virus or something, my stomach hasn't been feeling good lately. Super tired, maybe it's the flu with some stomach issues. I feel like I want to puke, I'm gonna go rest, so on and so forth. Try to normalize everything so people leave you alone and think you're just sick with the flu, some stomach issues or whatever so if you do puke it was kind of expected by that point. If you lay down after puking it's just to rest because you're not feeling good. Shut the door, I need to rest type thing. Build it up for a solid 2 days then make everything seem like nothing out of the ordinary so someone with a stomach bug.

Maybe even pick up some cold and flu OTC meds and leave them beside to sell it. Open 1 up and flush it so it looks like you're taking them.

Shit they may even leave you alone just so they don't catch what they think you have.

Love and respect

Ps. I'm not saying to do this. I'm just telling you want I'm gonna do.

Tbh that makes so much sense. I think you just gave me the biggest inspo. But like what if we make sounds other than vomiting? I've read that former sn users made weird sounds(like they were suffocating) before they passed out.

 

[genghis khan]

Personally my plan is to get a hotel room

 

[celest]

Personally my plan is to get a hotel room

I wish I could but my parents would make that a bigger problem than me committing suicide.

 

[Gonnerr]

Wait til there is a big storm , thunder and rain might cover the noise you will make but that's not 100% guarantee.

 

[befree]

(it's legal in my country)

What is legal in your country? SN or antiemetic?
What is different? If the package is sent directly to a pick-up station, your parents will not know about it. You can also rent an address at MBE. I had mentioned this option several times in the forum.

 

[Lawliet]

If I decide to go with this method then unfortunately I'll have to do it at home. We're quite a big family so I never get left alone. I have my own room with a lock but they can crash the window and easily come inside. I don't care about my family finding my body, though I'm sure my mom would have an heart attack, I'm too far gone to stress about what will happen after I die. The problem is them finding me before and obviously calling for help. Some otc antiemetics are available where I live as far as I know and if I manage to obtain sn my only concern will be this. Our house is not big either and if I vomit they'll def hear it. Maybe if I do it at night it would possibly keep them from intervening but still there's a risk. I can't go to a hotel or anywhere else public. My only other option is to wait until I'm financially stable and maybe rent my own apartment (Which would take 3-4 years) but ik I would lose my shit and do something impulsive till then. What do you think? Would it be too much of a risk to ctb living with my parents even if it's a poison like sn?

Been on this site for fucking two years and still here we are. I guess god loves to see me in pain.

I live with my parents but I live in the basement separate from them. In order to explain the vomiting, I'm going to pretend to be sick a day or two before hand. Your situation sounds very risky, I wish there was more I could do to help.

 

[celest]

What is legal in your country? SN or antiemetic?
What is different? If the package is sent directly to a pick-up station, your parents will not know about it. You can also rent an address at MBE. I had mentioned this option several times in the forum.

Both are. They likely wont check my package but you're right,extra caution is better.

I live with my parents but I live in the basement separate from them. In order to explain the vomiting, I'm going to pretend to be sick a day or two before hand. Your situation sounds very risky, I wish there was more I could do to help.

It indeed is. This pretending to be sick thing makes sense. I'm sure they'll call an ambulance either way though. Thanks for your wishes. I'd rather continue living my shitty life then make it worse by failing suicide so till I come up with a better plan I won't do it.