No seriously
The best way i can guarantee to die are ways that would hurt others potentially
I want to mix methods
I had a attempt was revived
I dont want to go through that again
That might make me sound with a bad person
I dont know if i care like obviously part of me does because I'm on here, asking for advice, but
Last time i used a beta blocker so i would have to get a high amount and convince my doctor that its okay
Same with a dni I'm definitely not going to be revived or a vegetable in pain for the rest of my life
My plan is to try to get more metropolol I have a prescription and I could try to get a bigger supply. Just what are things i can say?
For a dnr i just would claim religion Sorry if that's offensive but it's the easiest to way
I mean i could od and ctb by driving off a bridge I would need help picking one that is high enough, but also doesnt have netting
Si has always gotten in the way
I want to try to get Lithium it made me the most suicidal ive ever been
I need more ways to get motivated and saying that mindset and not get scared. Last time I made a playlist of songs that made me feel more. Suicidally motivated
And I destroyed passwords and stuff
Honestly, I wish I could just hire somebody i have 5k in savings i can get. I just don't know if I can wait. And I also don't know if they would just scam me or torture me, but I don't even think I care about being tortured as long as I get a die after.
Theres this drug addict i know I could try to convince them to sell me a bunch of stuff. I just don't feel like I couldn't inject on my own.
I really just want something to call my fucking nerves. Last time I was able to practice what it would be like and get it done..
I just have to stay in the Headspace.
As far as combining methods, what is the best for od. Hanging doesnt feel like my style and it's too much work to get everything set up. I don't have a ladder anyways. So just having to buy all the stuff and pretending like I'm fucking normal. I don't think I can do it.
Ideally, I wouldn't. Wanna wait.
I could go to a gun range.. I don't know if the gun range loophole is a thing.
It seems kind of fucked to do that or anything in public. I just don't care.
My doctors appointment is soon
I'm also scared I'll get arrested or in trouble because I'm not illegally allowed to have a gun because I signed something and a mental hospital so I don't know if there's a database or something or if they check but that sounds too risky and I really don't want
Also idk i should leave a note I don't know if anyone would actually read it or care I just feel like it would motivate me more. Last time I wasn't a note person because no one listen to me. All that was alive.
What are things I can say to get extra refillS
I don't wanna make anything too obvious, but at this point, I don't really care, and I feel like people are gullible enough
I also kind of wonder to ruin my life and many ways. Just so it's easier to get through. The attempt
I really need something for si
The best way i can guarantee to die are ways that would hurt others potentially
I want to mix methods
I had a attempt was revived
I dont want to go through that again
That might make me sound with a bad person
I dont know if i care like obviously part of me does because I'm on here, asking for advice, but
Last time i used a beta blocker so i would have to get a high amount and convince my doctor that its okay
Same with a dni I'm definitely not going to be revived or a vegetable in pain for the rest of my life
My plan is to try to get more metropolol I have a prescription and I could try to get a bigger supply. Just what are things i can say?
For a dnr i just would claim religion Sorry if that's offensive but it's the easiest to way
I mean i could od and ctb by driving off a bridge I would need help picking one that is high enough, but also doesnt have netting
Si has always gotten in the way
I want to try to get Lithium it made me the most suicidal ive ever been
I need more ways to get motivated and saying that mindset and not get scared. Last time I made a playlist of songs that made me feel more. Suicidally motivated
And I destroyed passwords and stuff
Honestly, I wish I could just hire somebody i have 5k in savings i can get. I just don't know if I can wait. And I also don't know if they would just scam me or torture me, but I don't even think I care about being tortured as long as I get a die after.
Theres this drug addict i know I could try to convince them to sell me a bunch of stuff. I just don't feel like I couldn't inject on my own.
I really just want something to call my fucking nerves. Last time I was able to practice what it would be like and get it done..
I just have to stay in the Headspace.
As far as combining methods, what is the best for od. Hanging doesnt feel like my style and it's too much work to get everything set up. I don't have a ladder anyways. So just having to buy all the stuff and pretending like I'm fucking normal. I don't think I can do it.
Ideally, I wouldn't. Wanna wait.
I could go to a gun range.. I don't know if the gun range loophole is a thing.
It seems kind of fucked to do that or anything in public. I just don't care.
My doctors appointment is soon
I'm also scared I'll get arrested or in trouble because I'm not illegally allowed to have a gun because I signed something and a mental hospital so I don't know if there's a database or something or if they check but that sounds too risky and I really don't want
Also idk i should leave a note I don't know if anyone would actually read it or care I just feel like it would motivate me more. Last time I wasn't a note person because no one listen to me. All that was alive.
What are things I can say to get extra refillS
I don't wanna make anything too obvious, but at this point, I don't really care, and I feel like people are gullible enough
I also kind of wonder to ruin my life and many ways. Just so it's easier to get through. The attempt
I really need something for si
