Hi! I'm new here and I need help and advice on a guaranteed way to ctb. I've tried before and failed and I want it to work this time. Any advice is appreciated!
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Ethereal Knight
Seja um bom soldado, morra onde você caiu.
- Jan 10, 2022
- 816
first thing, read the PPeH.
here's the link for the last version (nov 2021): https://fs-01.cyberdrop.to/PPeH_Nov_(25)_2021-3SFMAtwR.pdf
it's a PDF. it's rather big. you may need a PDF reader if you're on phone or you may need to right click and select "Save As…" if you're on desktop.
this book talks about a lot of methods.
sounds like what you're looking for is reliability. the more reliable a method is, the greater is the chance of success.
PPeH definitely talks about reliability.
but there are other aspects one may consider as well. I can't remember all of them, but some are peacefulness, availability, the time it takes to work, danger to others, risks and consequences of failing, personal preference etc etc…
here's the link for the last version (nov 2021): https://fs-01.cyberdrop.to/PPeH_Nov_(25)_2021-3SFMAtwR.pdf
it's a PDF. it's rather big. you may need a PDF reader if you're on phone or you may need to right click and select "Save As…" if you're on desktop.
this book talks about a lot of methods.
sounds like what you're looking for is reliability. the more reliable a method is, the greater is the chance of success.
PPeH definitely talks about reliability.
but there are other aspects one may consider as well. I can't remember all of them, but some are peacefulness, availability, the time it takes to work, danger to others, risks and consequences of failing, personal preference etc etc…
Ethereal Knight
Seja um bom soldado, morra onde você caiu.
- Jan 10, 2022
- 816
I think availability is always important. if a method is reliable and peaceful but unavailable, it's impossible to do it.
my personal methods of choice for ME (considering what's available to me and considering I live alone and am unlikely to be found in days) in order of personal preference are:
1) SN (sodium nitrite)
2) amitriptyline
3) chloroquine
4) firearm
methods I personally would never do: jumping of a building, getting run over by a train, hanging, cutting wrists, CO (carbon monoxide), self-immolation, decapitation, drowning, starvation, electrocution, cop suicide, overdose with unreliable drugs etc…
but these are just my personal preferences. it's not that some methods are bad and other good. each one has to be researched individually to see their benefits and downsides. this is also not a suggestion, I don't recommend any particular method and I'm not encouraging you or anyone to CTB.
please consider the safety of the methods. I mean, the risk of getting injured or disabled permanently after a failed attempt.
seeing people getting disabled or brain-damaged really makes me sad.
one question you gotta ask yourself is: do I have access to a place where it's unlikely that anyone will find me in the next X hours? the amount of time needed varies depending on the method, some of them require more time than others.
inform yourself, do your own research carefully. safety comes first. never act out of impulse. this is a big decision and has to be thought carefully.
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry that you went through a failed attempt, I can imagine that it must have been awful. Ctb really is so difficult and in my case, the fear of failure is the main thing holding me back. More than anything I wish that it was easier to leave this world. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
