Nearly attempted

[liafreak]

So I had everything ready, I took antiemetics and a benzo and prepared my SN drinks. But as I was about to drink I started panicking, about death, about taking SN. I'm not someone who was scared of death but the reality of never coming back scared me. I realised I just want to feel better, I don't want to be mentally ill. I hope I get better because honestly I'm only 20 and I think I should give life a try even tho it's really painful to exist. I kind of got a wake up call and panicked so much when I decided not to take the SN drink. I'll probably stop visiting SS but I wish u all the best (whatever that entails for you)

 

[Treeline589]

I wish you good luck in your recovery

 

[Lullaby]

It's okay to try and recover. You're still really young, lots of things can change, happen and improve.

I hope things work out for you, and if you ever need to vent about anything, you have a supportive community here. Good luck

 

[Achlys]

Glad that you decided to stay. I wish you well on your recovery.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

The ultimate goal of many here is to feel better and be at peace, whether that means to recover or to CTB. Whichever path you strive for, I wish you success in your ultimate goal. Hope you have a very fulfilling life

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I think your actions, and subsequent words here, speak volumes about your true feelings. You owe it to yourself to set the "S" notion aside and see what else can be. Good luck on this new endeavor!

 

[DPJ187]

Nothing wrong with having a change of mind, it is what keeps us alive after all. I wish you a speedy recovery.

 

[JamieJambo]

You know I am 37 and when I was your age, there were things that happened to me that I could never see a way through only for them to change and for my life to get way way way better.

If I had killed myself I never would have seen that happen.

Give your life another go and you might find things work out for you, as they do for people often

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I know that living really is so painful but I am pleased for you that you are giving life another chance. I hope things go well.

 

[Glowarm]

So I had everything ready, I took antiemetics and a benzo and prepared my SN drinks. But as I was about to drink I started panicking, about death, about taking SN. I'm not someone who was scared of death but the reality of never coming back scared me. I realised I just want to feel better, I don't want to be mentally ill. I hope I get better because honestly I'm only 20 and I think I should give life a try even tho it's really painful to exist. I kind of got a wake up call and panicked so much when I decided not to take the SN drink. I'll probably stop visiting SS but I wish u all the best (whatever that entails for you)

Then you absolutely should give life a try. Follow your gut, if ctb doesn't feel right, then do not do it. Take it easy and do things that make you happy. I wish you all the best and if you ever people to listen, we're here for you.

 

[_Seeking]

I'm glad that you realized this before it was too late. I wish you the best with everything.

 

[humanhuman]

Really happy for you that you had that personal wake up call, wishing you well <3