Discussion N survivor here, Ask me any questions you have regarding N.

[yaulkan]

It's just disappointment for n coming to life.
I want and resent it.. God
What the hell is this world expecting from me?
I have nothing.....
God, where are you going?

 

[Veraln]

Anti-emetics prior? What was your body position when you took it ? Could you have regurgitated some while unconscious ?
No alcohol after ?
What's your age if you don't mind sharing ?

This case suggests rescue was possible after several hours with a quantity close to the equivalent of 1 bottle

https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://www.acmt.net/_Library/2015_ASM_Posters/Abstract_17.pdf&ved=2ahUKEwjJ69HRr7n5AhVnwQIHHWcKBNMQFnoECA4QAQ&usg=AOvVaw24JgL-DXV-LxgCDRUabiyL

 

[jk9761]

is 3 100ml of
is taking 3 100ml of N too much to take . it cant fail in my opinion

 

[lostangel]

Why didn't the one bottle kill you?? Are you a heavy person? This makes me nervous 22 hours is a long time and longer than people were saying about the length of time it takes for N to kill you.

 

[want2dienow]

how privileged must you have been for this substance (ლ‸－)

 

[FuneralCry]

Thank you for sharing your experience. It sounds like you have been through a lot. I envy those who have the option of N in the first place. I wish you relief from suffering.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Feel so bad for you. I feel gutted just waking up in the morning still alive. To wake up after attempting ctb must be awful.

It's so kind of you to be sharing your experience though. Sadly, there's little chance of me getting hold of N (in UK) but I'm still strangely interested in it.

 

[outrider567]

I wasn't conscious when they found out it was barbiturates I've been hospitalized before and wasn't going to go through that again and the team was already implying I took the barbiturates to end my life so I just told them I was unaware of the cause and they believed me

6'0 168lbs and no I do not use at all although that was a pretty well suited exception

I'm exactly the same physically, but my metabolism is actually quite slow, the opposite of yours---If I took N, I'd be successful, except that I do get phone calls occasionally from 3 different people,so it would be possible for me to be found 22 hours later----Which is why I'm using Nitrogen instead, no coming back from that

It was great, I had my music playing in the dark with a smile on my face, people say the taste is horrid and it makes you throw up but I honestly didn't mind it at all. Kind of reminded me of the smell of nail polish remover but not nearly as bad of a taste as everyone makes it out to be. There was no pain whatsoever I just remember one minute I was content in my dark room with nothing on my mind but the lyrics of the song and the next I was all doped up in a hospital bed weeks later.

It was separate orders

Sounds quite peaceful indeed

 

[Darkover]

good to see you have no permanent damage hope you get what you are seeking soon good thread by the way

 

[Lastsauce]

Thanks for sharing your experience!
I find it very surprising that one bottle was not enough to stop your breathing.
Do you know if you vomited after passing out?

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I wonder if it was fully the right stuff and not diluted in some way cos you mention the taste wasn't that horrible.

 

[mrscat]

Thanks for sharing your experience with us and I am so sorry for what you went through. Some of us want to use this method as peaceful as seems.
Do you think the failed was because you didn't drink the amount that is needed ( 10 grams? in the 2 bottles) I read in PPeh that 10 grams is the needed.
What about anti emetics? What did you eat in the prior hours ? did you have some chocolate to mask the flavour? sorry for too many questions :- I hope you recover soon without any side effects...Best luck!

Why didn't the one bottle kill you?? Are you a heavy person? This makes me nervous 22 hours is a long time and longer than people were saying about the length of time it takes for N to kill you.

right! me too so nervous.. 22 hours? I though with 15 hours I will be fine.. but now I doubt it

 

[yıη]

Assuming you purchased your N from the one known seller (the one mentioned on this website), I would appreciate a chance to discuss my question with you. I should mention that I am in the united states.

• My N made it into my country in two days and is currently in a warehouse, where it has sat since the 22nd of last month, not moving. It's just one state away. I messaged 'the seller' but he hasn't responded in four days. Should I be worried? I sent him the correct street address and made sure I messaged the right email address. How would I even go about proceeding?

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I hope you recover soon without any side effects...Best luck!

@mrscat I think they are fine now, thankfully! Physically anyway.

At first I honestly did, I thought I was stupid for trying to leave and by one of the most peaceful ways possible at that I felt like a quitter and a failure then tried to so hard to get back up but then it all came back to me. Nothing permanent, I was definitely in horrible shape the first week, My biggest problem was no brain activity. I have a healthy diet and am very physically fit so that played a big part in my recovery.

On a scale from 1-10 how bad was the experience in the hospital? Like I know you said you were quite high at first, but after that. Is it an experience you'd wanna avoid at all costs? Just from a physical point of view like pain/discomfort etc.

 

[CannotAnymore]

Took N after weeks of research and planning and as we all know things don't always go to plan was found approximately 22 hours later, fell into a coma for a bit but here I am back and NOT better! Figure I make some use of my experience so if you guys have any questions use me while you got me because I won't be here for long.

I'm so sorry that it didn't work for you. I wish people understood what it takes to get mentally 'there' and then how awful it is to wake up.... UGH (Happened to me with a failed attempt with SN).

Does the fact that someone checked up on you make you feel any better?

Is anyone on to what you were trying to do?

 

[MountainMonkey]

A very insightful thread. Thank you. I guess the only unknown variable is if the N was pure or diluted

 

[houseofleaves]

how privileged must you have been for this substance (ლ‸－)

er… dude…

 

[Resinn66]

Oh man, that was unfortunate Do you think the quantity was too low? Is it really painless after you took it?

 

[Veraln]

Some general data we have regarding the time it takes

From Switzerland and the Netherland, with 15g ~ closer to 2 bottles
90% after 2 hours
100% after 12 hours

...which is really to hear: almost 100% in DIY practice

The PPeH states <1% of cases could take up to 24 hours without a specific reason.

Derek Humphrey pretends to have obseved a few times outliers ranging towards 48 hours and therefore recommends 2 days for safety

The longest stastistical record from the DWD Act in the US is 104 hours, although no explanation to back it is known

If a big concern, may want to add strong alcohol and benzos to the mix, especially cleared of tolerance. all supposed to intervene as CNS depressants in complementay ways

 

[Tortured Existence]

Thank you for sharing your story, and so sorry this happened to you!

This is a cautionary tale, as I've seen too many posts on this site that people say that only one bottle is needed, or somebody boldly saying they've known many people who died from one bottle.

The experts (Dignitas & Pegasos) use 15 grams. If anything close to a bottle that's 6.3 grams would work, why would they use more than double.

I was an Exit member long before I learned of this site, and never has PN said in a webinar that he "recommends" 2 bottles. He says that you NEED 10 grams to die. Period.

This comment is not meant at all to scold the OP who was obviously desperate, but to encourage people with N or thinking of purchasing it to not risk just purchasing or taking one bottle.

Sure, a single bottle may work for a small percentage, but do you really want to take that chance?

Hell, I'm worried that I'll wake up from 2, but I know of no cases that happened if a person wasnt "saved" before 24 hours, and even those cases are rare if vomiting hasn't occurred.

I'm SO glad that the OP made a full recovery and didn't end up locked away in a psychiatric facility

 

[AliceTheGoon]

Thanks for this post! Maybe add to your OP what everyone's going to want to know so they don't have to go looking:

Was it from D
How much did you drink
How much do you weigh
What it felt like before going under

 

[Tortured Existence]

is 3 100ml of
is taking 3 100ml of N too much to take . it cant fail in my opinion

Only if you vomit A LOT! Otherwise, there's no way you can fail with that amount. I wish I'd saved my third bottle.

 

[alegriayamor]

So what does this mean? One bottle is useless? As I read you can still buy one bottle or two. Why?

 

[jk9761]

Only if you vomit A LOT! Otherwise, there's no way you can fail with that amount. I wish I'd saved my third bottle.

what does that mean , you ordered 3

 

[lifeisbutadream]

22 hours should have been enough time, no?

I'm surprised that they found the n in you yet still accepted your explanation that you didn't know what happened. They didn't try to interrogate you?

I guess a plastic bag over your head would have sealed the deal.

 

[iforgotmyacc]

Was it like anesthesia?

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I'm sorry you failed, OP. But your information here is invaluable, thank you for sharing your experience with the community.

 

[Sunny-Pia]

Did you take anti-emetics prior to taking N.

 

[sewercide]

Did you manage to get N into europe?

 

[Shrike94]

At first I honestly did, I thought I was stupid for trying to leave and by one of the most peaceful ways possible at that I felt like a quitter and a failure then tried to so hard to get back up but then it all came back to me. Nothing permanent, I was definitely in horrible shape the first week, My biggest problem was no brain activity. I have a healthy diet and am very physically fit so that played a big part in my recovery.

Did you do any tests to measure brain activity? what did it feel like to have no brain activity. Just curious from a brain injured perspective.