N/Sn what are you guys waiting for?

[plsletmego]

So, as I was able to finally get meto yesterday. I decided I would fast today and check into a hotel. Yet here I am suddenly feeling like I'm not ready. I'm sooo frustrated. SI is always ruining everything.

I have SN, and I think a big part of things holding me back is that for so many people it seems like it was painful / took up to 20-40 mins to pass out which scares me. I'm just laying in bed in the hotel trying to psyche myself up to do it.

I'm torn between that and maybe just trying to get my hands on N. I'm sure everyone says this but I feel like if I had N I could just do it knowing that unconsciousness would come so quickly. I'm also having these irritating sentimental thoughts coming up about how I don't want to ruin the holiday season for family and maybe I should wait until after xmas but literally everyday is so miserable for me. There's never going to be a "right time". It's just the SI kicking in again…

 

[PeacefulTonic]

I'm living for others, that's what's holding me back. I'm not sure how much longer I can keep going on like this though

 

[plsletmego]

I'm living for others, that's what's holding me back. I'm not sure how much longer I can keep going on like this though

That's how I feel as well

 

[bed]

SI mainly.

I have N. I feel pathetic not being able to do it at this point.

 

[plsletmego]

SI mainly.

I have N. I feel pathetic not being able to do it at this point.

Don't feel pathetic. It's easy to say I'd gulp something down quickly as I don't have it currently. Who knows how I'll feel once I have it :(

 

[Grumpy Bear]

I'm just waiting for the date that I set with my partner. As for SI I hope it isn't too significant as I've been waiting many many years for this. At this time there are 45 days left for me. I just hope SI doesn't rear its ugly head when the countdown is nearer. We shall see.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

If N is an option then I would strongly consider that. I think N is the least SI inducing method. I have a deadline in mind but it is probably a good idea to do it sooner, just in case I start hesitating again.

 

[Smart No More]

I'm living for others, that's what's holding me back. I'm not sure how much longer I can keep going on like this though

Me too. I'm with you on that and feel your pain. I still don't know how I'm going to get around that. I'm also a bit concerned that vetinary could be problematic for me so I'm crossing my fingers for the powdered stuff to show up from a legitimate source in the meantime.


Regarding SN. I really have to say, from all accounts I've seen it is not peaceful. I know many people feel otherwise and I'm not knocking anybody for whatever method they choose as long has it isn't in haste. Just for the sake of offering advice in the best interests of the reader, I would say N over SN where possible. It is definitely obtainable and relatively easy once you get the ball rolling. It's just not cheap and obviously comes with some legal ramifications but they're pretty minimal it seems.

I hope you find your way to a better situation @plsletmego

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Regarding SN. I reehave to say, from all accounts I' ve seen it is not peaceful. I know many people feel otherwise and I'm nor knocking anybody for whatever method they choose as long has it isn't in haste. Just for the sake of offering advice in the best interests of the reader, I would say N over SN where possible. It is definitely obtainable and relatively easy once you get the ball rolling. It's just not cheap and obviously comes with some legal ramifications but they're pretty minimal it seems.

Yeah it is getting harder to source SN these days. Who know how long SN/N will still be available. Whatever your method I think you should stock up now just in case you might need it in the future. The price of N is high but it is the best you will ever get. Other methods are too complicated, risky or violent. Nothing as straight forward as drinking a cup of liquid. Even if the taste is horrible.

 

[Smart No More]

I totally agree.

 

[sandalphon]

I would say N over SN where possible. It is definitely obtainable and relatively easy once you get the ball rolling. It's just not cheap and obviously comes with some legal ramifications but they're pretty minimal it seems.

Please check your privilege. Even if by some miracle everyone can afford the price of N (which is more than 1000 USD in some places, do you have any idea how much that is in developing countries?), D doesn't even deliver everywhere! Not everyone lives in the US, Europe, or wherever it is you're from. So yeah, NOT definitely obtainable.

SN has a peacefulness rating of 7 in the PPH if I remember correctly. I don't know which posts you have been reading, but most SN goodbye threads here indicate that the method is relatively peaceful. Not as peaceful as N, but still better than more gruesome methods.

 

[Dot]

jk b/ am in sme positn....

 

[deathLiberation]

We are wired not to do it.
The prison planet was made this way.

Fear 1: Agonizing Pain
Fear 2: Not making it and develop some health issue that will make the future even worse
Fear 3: Other emotional issues
Bonus 1: Excuses of having just 1 more thing to do before ctb
Bonus 2: Too many choices on how to do it and not enough access

It´s all about fear and suffering. And something is feeding of our fears for sure.

 

[loopyloo]

When I feel that my illness gets to be too unbearable/a point where I feel I might soon not be able to make the decision on my own anymore :/ I hope my mom isn't there to see. Already lost my brother and dad this way. I just don't want to be like a living corpse. Some things are worse than death