Against better judgement, I ordered 2 bottles of N from A yesterday. I promise to post what happens. I have all exit bag materials, but don't want my kids to hear about me with a bag over my head, and I just plain keep having a hard time trusting the gas/process. Anyway, with all the uncertainty re: N from A, I will report. He did email me 4 times back/forth - 2 of them after payment. Ship date scheduled for next Wed supposedly.
I believe that, I just see the inconsistency of his recent shipments, some never arriving, and change of communication style, or going quiet, in email. Lots of questions about what is going on. I'm interested to see if the product arrives, and if so - in 100ml sealed packaging. I don't have much time for send out lab testing.
Pryras
Last hope
- Feb 11, 2020
- 451
Thank you for keeping us posted, Im interested if the process is still reliable or if things changed for the worse years ago, I'm unsure.
LMLN
Paragon
- Aug 10, 2019
- 929
From my recent experiences, he is reliable.
terry_a_davis
Warlock
- Dec 28, 2019
- 707
Roughly where are you from op? I've read A has better delivery success rate with orders to north america compared to europe. Could be wrong though.
Darkhaven
All i have left is memories
- May 19, 2019
- 979
If it were in europe it would have been apprehended , i bet.
They are cracking him down over here.
Surgeon
anam cara
- Mar 2, 2020
- 61
enjolras
Dead are useless if not to love the living more
- Feb 13, 2020
- 1,293
Is it possible to start anonymous polls ? Something like
Maybe an anonymous poll could be started to which part of the globe it delivers successfully in 2020, after how many attempts (1,2,3+)
1 vote max per user (changeable)
Too much exposure ?
Maybe an anonymous poll could be started to which part of the globe it delivers successfully in 2020, after how many attempts (1,2,3+)
1 vote max per user (changeable)
Too much exposure ?
HelensNepenthe
Thoughtful poster
- Jan 17, 2019
- 835
You cannot conduct a poll on a forum without people randomly throwing answers into it. There would be zero accuracy in the data.
Notabadguy
Mage
- Feb 7, 2020
- 576
May I ask how much did you pay? Are you drinking them just like that or you're going to send to test the product first?
I think $750. I got very close to ctb last week and opened one. Was going to try 1 oz to see what happened. I ordered a lab test kit from the Spanish lab Exit used, $70 or so and it never showed up. It's been maybe 6 weeks or so since then. Honestly, it smells like ethyl alcohol - I mean it's supposed to be injected not drank so it's mostly alcohol and chemical fillers. I have no idea how to drink two bottles. Also, 100 ml should be 1/3 cup. I poured one bottle in a measuring cup - It was 1/2 cup and about 110 ML. Concerned why it's more than 100 ML? Was in sealed glass bottles when it arrived. I just don't see how to drink 1 cup. I couldn't bring myself to even TASTE it, much less try the 1 ML. I'm stuck
Probably why you need anti emetics.
Did he give you the tracking number or kept it to himself?
I'm just curious. If planning to ctb and you're 100% sure, why is taste such a concern? I read about the capsules and the cigar paper to avoid drinking. The throwing up is the stomach getting rid of poison not from the taste per say but but maybe a little bit. Anyway my concern isn't the taste it's the pain afterwards. How bad, how long, etc? I don't want to suffer even 10 seconds as I've suffered enough. If i was positive i wouid go unconscious and not feel anything and not know what was happening i could easily endure quickly drinking something that didn't taste good. I can't drink SN bcuz I'm afraid I'll have the 20-30mins of such pain that i had regrets and call 911. If N truly knocks you out in less than 5 mins with no pain burning nausea etc i know it's documented in lethal injections but even then there are cases of needing additional dosage. I wish ark let someone witness and report.
GoodPersonEffed
Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
- Jan 11, 2020
- 6,727
Couldn't you mix it with a sweet alcoholic beverage?
Curious as to why you're not sure how much you spent.
enjolras
Dead are useless if not to love the living more
- Feb 13, 2020
- 1,293
Humm
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/my-journey-for-nembutal-beginning-of-the-ending.7015/
Filled at the 100ml bumpy mark, there is still some room left for extra. If you still have 1 sealed bottles left, and 1 empty, you could fill the empty one with 110ml water and check if the levels match between both, and adjust from there if it doesn't ...also check that the level seem coherent with and without markers (since yours don't have them).
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Because it was cash western union a few months ago I can't remember 750 or 850 but almost 100-% sure 750. I'm really sick and memory and thinking clearly not my strong point always. I am almost positive it was $750.
My bottles didn't have those bumpy measures on sides and the labels were peeled off. I was a littler concerned about no ML measures on side like I've seen in other pics.
I really thought the same thing and didn't even consider it. I did think....wow that's more liquid than I anticipated but once I smelled that pure alcohol type smell (it's much fainter but all chemical like that), I was like - how the hell am I supposed to drink all of that? And THEN when I couldn't even bring myself to put the tiniest drop in my mouth - I knew I was in trouble. I didn't know my aversion would be so bad. BUT I also really really don't want to die and really don't have a choice and I'm leaving small children so it's all a hot mess I can't handle at all. My pain is literal daily torture - minute torture - and I can't hide the fact that I can't care for my kids much longer. At all. I was supposed to go to Switzerland but kept stalling - then decided I was too sick to travel so got Nitrogen and exit bag - then couldn't bring myself to do that EVEN with assistance -bought N - didn't want my kids to know I killed myself - so back to Switzerland - and was in literal process of scheduling the week in April to go and corona hit.
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I just wish I had N, the anti emetic, and everything all set up ready to go. Sometimes the depression even makes the pursuit of N and a peaceful end seem insurmountable.
Girobatol
Specialist
- Sep 9, 2019
- 313
Sounds legit. I have mine in 20ml bottles, 12 of them, so I opened one and tasted. Smelled just as you said. My worry is that you need to take it soon after opening it because it will start to crystalize and white spots will appear. I did it because it was just a 20ml bottle. The taste is not that bad and you will be able to drink the whole thing.
faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
Wish you a good luck in this!
Hope everything goes fine for you
My primary method is N too, however it sounds utterly unbelievable for me now that I will be able to travel for N.
No job, no money and lockdown. Awesome, I selected the worst time again.
Hope everything goes fine for you
My primary method is N too, however it sounds utterly unbelievable for me now that I will be able to travel for N.
No job, no money and lockdown. Awesome, I selected the worst time again.
I feel like N is the best way. It's the volume of liquid to drink that I'm not sure i could do. Not taste. I can get passed that. You definitely can't get it down in a few gulps. It requires a bit of time to get it all down. Having to stop and take another gulp and another, it's too much time to think, i feel like i would get the first gulp down and then my brain would kick in and stop me from getting the rest down, basically my SI. I need one shot, done no more time to think. Even when I'm suffering so badly and literally have no life or health my SI is still ruling me.
Yeah I'm flaring up pretty bad last couple of days. I had managed to distract myself for 8-10 days going for aggressive runs all jacked up on pre workout and ephedrine; just doping myself up on runners high and managing to get caught in vanity. I also have a hard time going to therapy and having to cloak and dagger this suicidal ideation. I'm unwilling to commit myself to therapy or life, so I just kinda get through the days half assing life, being a basic, dysfunctional loser, making myself dumber and less functional, spending 10 plus hours a day on screens, binge eating and compulsively exercising, not really meaningfully talking to anyone, so fucking lonely and lost.
I hadn't been on here much in the last week, the running, movies/reddit/porn, feigning life kinda had me wrapped up. Then when the heat gets hot and I want to peacefully drift away and be only a memory and to be forgotten immediately I'm confronted with how much I don't trust any of the information available on here or myself to get N and safely pass on.
Yeah, this isn't living.
I hadn't been on here much in the last week, the running, movies/reddit/porn, feigning life kinda had me wrapped up. Then when the heat gets hot and I want to peacefully drift away and be only a memory and to be forgotten immediately I'm confronted with how much I don't trust any of the information available on here or myself to get N and safely pass on.
Yeah, this isn't living.
May I ask what email you have for him? I just want verify it's the same guy. I want to order. Thx! U can private message me if u want thx a lot!
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