Venting My Vent

[Happy Gilmore]

I just wanted to vent these feelings out since I've never vented them out to anyone.

I feel as though I don't have very good reasons for wanting to kill myself. I have a great family, great friends, and a full-time job. However, I'm just sick of feeling tons of ups and downs. My job makes me anxious, and I'll occasionally throw up at my work. It makes me feel as though that I may not be able to handle the jobs/work that I should be able to handle. I used to be a teacher which made me miserable, so I quit. I am grateful that my current job doesn't affect me as much as teaching did, but my current job still does quite a bit. Additionally, I have good friends and family, but I feel very lonely sometimes. I think I may just be "romantically lonely?" as I've only ever been in one relationship before.

Although my suffering isn't that severe, I know if there was a way to instaneously kill myself while having my loved ones magically forget me, I would love to do it. Painlessly ceasing to exist without having to worry about affecting those around me sounds like a good way to be.

 

[DivineSpark]

I feel like I have no right to feel suicidal and anxious because I have a great family and friends. I am blessed to live in this country of mine.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also wish to erase my existence, I just wish to peacefully disappear from this existence as well, I always wish there's the option for that with no more suffering.

 

[timechained]

I know if there was a way to instaneously kill myself while having my loved ones magically forget me, I would love to do it. Painlessly ceasing to exist without having to worry about affecting those around me sounds like a good way to be.

Well put. I wish that as well.