TastySorrow
Member
- May 18, 2020
- 58
It's been little over a year since my wife left me and took my kids with her. Almost 20 years of relationship to the trash. My business had already been doing pretty bad for a while with not that many hopes to bring it back, so I figured I'd just kill myself, leave my savings to my kids and stop burning through them trying to float the sinking boat. I impulsively bought my SN and meticulously planned it all, but ultimately decided to keep pushing and give life another try.
Fast forward to today, one year has passed and I've achieved pretty much nothing in regards to work and I'm at the end of my rope in financial terms. I did use every single bit of the free time from basically having not a lot to work on to spend it with my kids whenever I got to see them and, in that aspect, it was a great year, but in a matter of weeks I won't be able to provide for them anymore. Had the circumstances been different, with a loving wife and a tightly knit family, it wouldn't have been the end of the world if my business failed and I would have searched for something else without a doubt. But today I just lack the motivation to leave what I used to be good at and start a new venture or get a 9 to 5 job - this empty house that once was filled with life, today is just depressing as hell.
Maybe I'm fooling myself, maybe I'll wake up tomorrow and feel like it's worth keeping at it, but today more than ever it feels like the end is really near.
Fast forward to today, one year has passed and I've achieved pretty much nothing in regards to work and I'm at the end of my rope in financial terms. I did use every single bit of the free time from basically having not a lot to work on to spend it with my kids whenever I got to see them and, in that aspect, it was a great year, but in a matter of weeks I won't be able to provide for them anymore. Had the circumstances been different, with a loving wife and a tightly knit family, it wouldn't have been the end of the world if my business failed and I would have searched for something else without a doubt. But today I just lack the motivation to leave what I used to be good at and start a new venture or get a 9 to 5 job - this empty house that once was filled with life, today is just depressing as hell.
Maybe I'm fooling myself, maybe I'll wake up tomorrow and feel like it's worth keeping at it, but today more than ever it feels like the end is really near.
