Story my suicide

[Bannana]

When I was 16 years old, drugged up and tired, I decided I was going to end my own life
I didnt do my research, I spent the day at and old campsite near my home
I wrote lots of notes
Most of them I ended ripping up
I survived because I didn't cover my tracks
My dad saw my body, staring into oblivion with a mix of salvia, painkillers, and cough medicines pumping through my veins
I will never forgive myself for doing that to him
He didn't deserve to see that
I woke up in the hospital the next day
Hes never looked at me the same
I wish I had died that day
I want to die now
But I cant risk hurting anyone in that way ever again
I don't want anyone to hurt
I don't want anyone to cry
I just don't want to be here
I cant do this
I just cant keep doing this

 

[Little_Suzy]

It is not uncommon for parents to take their own lives, even when their children are young; therefore, you should not permit others to influence your choices.