my suicidal tendencies started in 2011, now it has escalated so far that the big day is coming soon

[xXSufferingXx]

i have been extremely rational about it and not made any rushed decisions. i've had many many years to think about it.
the most rational thing for me is probably to end it all, relatively soon.
definetely within the next, idk... 2 to 3 years.

i think it's for the best. it's alright.

i'm just still very much in doubt what method i should choose.
i would do the charcoal briquettes inside a car, if i had a car.

i don't even know how to drive one, so it's not like i can rent one, and you need a license for that anyway.

i'm not gonna be taking a drivers license just so i can use the car to self delete.

 

[areyousafe??]

This is why I get annoyed when people think of suicide as an "impulsive" decision. It's a long, thought out decision for me as I started experiencing suicidal thoughts in 2002. It's been weighing on my mind for years.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

This is why I get annoyed when people think of suicide as an "impulsive" decision. It's a long, thought out decision for me as I started experiencing suicidal thoughts in 2002. It's been weighing on my mind for years.

yep i hate that too. just because that's the case for some, doesn't mean it's the same for all.
wow 2002... how old are you may i ask? you can just say approximately

 

[areyousafe??]

yep i hate that too. just because that's the case for some, doesn't mean it's the same for all.
wow 2002... how old are you may i ask? you can just say approximately

I'm in my 30s. I was in my teens back in 2002, things have recently escalated and my day will hopefully arrive soon. How about you?

 

[twilightSparriw]

i have been extremely rational about it and not made any rushed decisions. i've had many many years to think about it.
the most rational thing for me is probably to end it all, relatively soon.
definetely within the next, idk... 2 to 3 years.

i think it's for the best. it's alright.

i'm just still very much in doubt what method i should choose.
i would do the charcoal briquettes inside a car, if i had a car.

i don't even know how to drive one, so it's not like i can rent one, and you need a license for that anyway.

i'm not gonna be taking a drivers license just so i can use the car to self delete.

'Relatively soon' i would say is before may…. It's 'funny' i was just thinking that today… the rationality of my wish to not anymore be is rather strong and long lasting… no impulsivity here…

 

[xXSufferingXx]

I'm in my 30s. I was in my teens back in 2002, things have recently escalated and my day will hopefully arrive soon. How about you?

i see. i'm in my mid 30's . i hope all the best for you

'Relatively soon' i would say is before may…. It's 'funny' i was just thinking that today… the rationality of my wish to not anymore be is rather strong and long lasting… no impulsivity here…

i can't leave my dog behind.
and yes, suicide can be very rational.
when did you first start getting thoughts about it?

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as for me personally ceasing to exist is all that could be rational, I've wished to not exist for so long, but anyway I wish you the best.