My story

[alKokNo]

hello. I don't know why, but I want to share my story with you. Perhaps this is some kind of my confession. I was with a woman for 12 years with whom I wanted to live my life. we sometimes quarreled, but I always knew that no matter what, we would always be together. it could not have been otherwise, so I told myself. but one day I changed. it was a mistake. I was forgiven and it would seem that the worst is over. but a few years later she left me. after that I came here to you. I thought it was definitely the worst. but no. a month after the breakup, she became pregnant from a villain and he just left her. I found out about this just recently. she is in a terrible and broken state, and no matter what, I must pull her out of this hell. I even thought about taking her in with a baby, but she still pushes me away and tells me I need to live my life. this breaks my heart even more, but I'm trying my best to give her all the warmth that I have. I feel that this is my goal for some period of time, after which I can safely go beyond. I will be happy knowing that she got back on her feet and can move on with her life. I made a lot of mistakes and I don't want to feel that kind of pain anymore. I hope I don't hurt her too much by finally drinking my sn. thanks for reading this whine. I'm embarrassed that I'm dragging you into my pain.

 

[catflowers]

You aren't dragging anyone into your pain. Thanks for sharing. I am planning to kill myself with SN while my dad is out for the weekend. you can't blame her for your situation, and I can't blame my dad for mine. The world would be better off without me.

 

[alKokNo]

You aren't dragging anyone into your pain. Thanks for sharing. I am planning to kill myself with SN while my dad is out for the weekend. you can't blame her for your situation, and I can't blame my dad for mine. The world would be better off without me.

Of course, I don't blame anyone but myself. good luck friend, no matter what you decide

 

[catflowers]

Of course, I don't blame anyone but myself. good luck friend, no matter what you decide

I know I decide to end my life soon, but I would like to tell my own story right now.
Basically, I am a fucking loser at 19. I have been suicidal for almost 7 years and I can't take it anymore. It has been so long but I tried to focus on therapy and getting help. The people at the crisis lines cannot fix my situation and my old high school friends flaked out on me. I am completely alone and it feels like my parents are fucking disappointed in me. Suicide is the only answer. I do not major in chem but I know people who do so I can know how much SN I should use. I am done with my life. It is the only thing that will make me happy, no amount of money in the world could make me feel like that.

 

[alKokNo]

I know I decide to end my life soon, but I would like to tell my own story right now.
Basically, I am a fucking loser at 19. I have been suicidal for almost 7 years and I can't take it anymore. It has been so long but I tried to focus on therapy and getting help. The people at the crisis lines cannot fix my situation and my old high school friends flaked out on me. I am completely alone and it feels like my parents are fucking disappointed in me. Suicide is the only answer. I do not major in chem but I know people who do so I can know how much SN I should use. I am done with my life. It is the only thing that will make me happy, no amount of money in the world could make me feel like that.

I understand how you feel. when you think that you are worthless and disappoint everyone around you - it's terrible. but it is not so. I am sure that you are a magnificent person with a very big and vulnerable heart. in any case, we will find what we are looking for. sn is not an escape from problems, but just another choice. last choice in our lives. my english is not very good so sorry if i misunderstood.

 

[veryhappyhuman]

I know I decide to end my life soon, but I would like to tell my own story right now.
Basically, I am a fucking loser at 19. I have been suicidal for almost 7 years and I can't take it anymore. It has been so long but I tried to focus on therapy and getting help. The people at the crisis lines cannot fix my situation and my old high school friends flaked out on me. I am completely alone and it feels like my parents are fucking disappointed in me. Suicide is the only answer. I do not major in chem but I know people who do so I can know how much SN I should use. I am done with my life. It is the only thing that will make me happy, no amount of money in the world could make me feel like that.

Suicidal from just 12 years of age sounds absolutely horrific, I can't even imagine. I'm sorry you're going through this and therapy isn't helping. Wish you find peace!

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are trapped in this situation, this life really is just so cruel and it's sad how there is so much suffering that exists in this world. I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief as none of us should ever have to experience pain.