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mute656

mute656

Member
Feb 7, 2026
17
I'm planning to CTB on February 24 using SN

About me: a guy weighing 95 kg with a slow metabolism.

My Protocol:
February 23, 7:00 PM - last intake of solid food

February 24 8:00 AM - ibuprofen 1000 mg, Metoclopramide 40 mg and ondansetron 16 mg. Take with a sip of water.
February 24 8:30 AM - I will dissolve 15 mg of Xanax in a small amount of water (20-30 ml) and drink it.

February 24 8:50 AM Prepare three glasses of SN:
Glass No. 1: 27 g of SN + 60 ml of room temperature water. Stir thoroughly until completely dissolved.
Glass No. 2 + Glass No. 3: Exactly the same. This is an absolute safeguard in case of vomiting.

February 24 9:00 or 9:20: I take glass No. 1 (30 g SN).
I drink it in one gulp, as quickly as possible. Without stopping.
I immediately lie down on my RIGHT SIDE.
If I vomit before losing consciousness, I drink another glass of sn

If you are knowledgeable in this area, please evaluate the protocol. I am open to suggestions and feedback on any shortcomings.
 
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RiftbornVeil

RiftbornVeil

always a dreamer <3
Feb 8, 2026
138
It's unfortunate that life's struggles have led you to this point. I wish you the best and hope you find peace.

As for the protocol, everything looks good to me. I've typically observed people use two cups, you've prepared to the extra step by taking three.

Where will you CTB? Also, does the side (left/right) matter significantly?
 
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whoisit

At peace for now
Jan 25, 2026
47
You could swap the ibuprofen with standard Tylenol. It's just as effective and helps better.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
924
15mg of xanax is a huge overdose, in the 30 minutes you plan on waiting until you can drink your SN, the 15mg of xanax will almost certainly knock you out into a deep coma mid-protocol.
 
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Luther84

Member
Feb 17, 2026
54
15mg of xanax is a huge overdose, in the 30 minutes you plan on waiting until you can drink your SN, the 15mg of xanax will almost certainly knock you out into a deep coma mid-protocol.
How much xanax would you recommend?
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
924
How much xanax would you recommend?
It depends A LOT if you had Xanax before or not. For me since I only had Xanax just 3 or 4 times in my life a 1mg dose can almost knock me out. For a person who takes it daily for months his daily dose could be 2 or 3mg and he would feel must a littlebit sleepy from that dosage.
 
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android

Student
Nov 9, 2025
115
I'm planning to CTB on February 24 using SN

About me: a guy weighing 95 kg with a slow metabolism.

My Protocol:
February 23, 7:00 PM - last intake of solid food

February 24 8:00 AM - ibuprofen 1000 mg, Metoclopramide 40 mg and ondansetron 16 mg. Take with a sip of water.
February 24 8:30 AM - I will dissolve 15 mg of Xanax in a small amount of water (20-30 ml) and drink it.

February 24 8:50 AM Prepare three glasses of SN:
Glass No. 1: 27 g of SN + 60 ml of room temperature water. Stir thoroughly until completely dissolved.
Glass No. 2 + Glass No. 3: Exactly the same. This is an absolute safeguard in case of vomiting.

February 24 9:00 or 9:20: I take glass No. 1 (30 g SN).
I drink it in one gulp, as quickly as possible. Without stopping.
I immediately lie down on my RIGHT SIDE.
If I vomit before losing consciousness, I drink another glass of sn

If you are knowledgeable in this area, please evaluate the protocol. I am open to suggestions and feedback on any shortcomings.
Doesn't taking Ibuprofen on an empty stomach damage the stomach lining, making you more susceptible to nausea?
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,823
I'm sorry that life has brought you to this point. May I ask about the timing or place you have decided on? Are you confident that the morning will allow for enough time to be alone? I'd also be careful with the Xanax.
 
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uselessmanz

Student
Feb 18, 2026
132
Doesn't taking Ibuprofen on an empty stomach damage the stomach lining, making you more susceptible to nausea?
may i ask why this is your chosen method instead of doing something like jumping?
 
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mute656

mute656

Member
Feb 7, 2026
17
It depends A LOT if you had Xanax before or not. For me since I only had Xanax just 3 or 4 times in my life a 1mg dose can almost knock me out. For a person who takes it daily for months his daily dose could be 2 or 3mg and he would feel must a littlebit sleepy from that dosage.
I used Xanax for more than 3 years, so I need at least 2-3 mg to feel the effect.

You're wrong about coma. To induce coma, you need at least 600 mg+, I read somewhere, and I heard about a case where a guy took 100 mg+ with the intention of dying and just woke up the next day.
 
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youpi

Member
Jul 4, 2024
82
I used Xanax for more than 3 years, so I need at least 2-3 mg to feel the effect.

You're wrong about coma. To induce coma, you need at least 600 mg+, I read somewhere, and I heard about a case where a guy took 100 mg+ with the intention of dying and just woke up the next day.
You do you. I think your Xanax dose is OK considering your tolerance. Be reminded most people on here are teenagers who've taken DXM and codeine and think they've tried it all
 
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mute656

Member
Feb 7, 2026
17
Doesn't taking Ibuprofen on an empty stomach damage the stomach lining, making you more susceptible to nausea?
You're right, I'll replace it with paracetamol.
 
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verybabybunny

verybabybunny

in pain
May 11, 2023
44
may i ask why this is your chosen method instead of doing something like jumping?
Jumping is generally considered to be avoided within the community. Jumping also doesn't have that great of a success rate (though ive listed it as my preferred method before.)

Unless you have access to 200ft over solid ground youre likely to end up dismembered and living that way.
 
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uselessmanz

Student
Feb 18, 2026
132
I'm planning to CTB on February 24 using SN

About me: a guy weighing 95 kg with a slow metabolism.

My Protocol:
February 23, 7:00 PM - last intake of solid food

February 24 8:00 AM - ibuprofen 1000 mg, Metoclopramide 40 mg and ondansetron 16 mg. Take with a sip of water.
February 24 8:30 AM - I will dissolve 15 mg of Xanax in a small amount of water (20-30 ml) and drink it.

February 24 8:50 AM Prepare three glasses of SN:
Glass No. 1: 27 g of SN + 60 ml of room temperature water. Stir thoroughly until completely dissolved.
Glass No. 2 + Glass No. 3: Exactly the same. This is an absolute safeguard in case of vomiting.

February 24 9:00 or 9:20: I take glass No. 1 (30 g SN).
I drink it in one gulp, as quickly as possible. Without stopping.
I immediately lie down on my RIGHT SIDE.
If I vomit before losing consciousness, I drink another glass of sn

If you are knowledgeable in this area, please evaluate the protocol. I am open to suggestions and feedback on any shortcomings.
Good luck, today's the day
 
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Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Specialist
Mar 18, 2024
370
Looks good to me, tylenol would be more gentle on an empty stomach. The 30 mins from xanex to SN concerns me. Everyone is different, but myself, I'd be passed out by 30 min and would sleep through my SN time. I have Clonazepam instead of xanex, I'm thinking 10 to 15 minutes wait for me. Perhaps someone with experience with xanex onset time can add some insight with that.
Good luck, I hope your journey to peace is gentle.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,247
good luck,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering đź«‚:heart:
 
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android

Student
Nov 9, 2025
115
Good luck and it's not too late to back out. Be sure this is what you want. If it is I wish you the best
 
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vascomorrow

Student
Feb 11, 2026
111
I'm planning to CTB on February 24 using SN

About me: a guy weighing 95 kg with a slow metabolism.

My Protocol:
February 23, 7:00 PM - last intake of solid food

February 24 8:00 AM - ibuprofen 1000 mg, Metoclopramide 40 mg and ondansetron 16 mg. Take with a sip of water.
February 24 8:30 AM - I will dissolve 15 mg of Xanax in a small amount of water (20-30 ml) and drink it.

February 24 8:50 AM Prepare three glasses of SN:
Glass No. 1: 27 g of SN + 60 ml of room temperature water. Stir thoroughly until completely dissolved.
Glass No. 2 + Glass No. 3: Exactly the same. This is an absolute safeguard in case of vomiting.

February 24 9:00 or 9:20: I take glass No. 1 (30 g SN).
I drink it in one gulp, as quickly as possible. Without stopping.
I immediately lie down on my RIGHT SIDE.
If I vomit before losing consciousness, I drink another glass of sn

If you are knowledgeable in this area, please evaluate the protocol. I am open to suggestions and feedback on any shortcomings.
Maybe there is something we can say to maybe change your mind for a while?... sorry this is happening to you
 
VanillaBeam

VanillaBeam

Member
Feb 19, 2026
6
I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you want. It wouldn't be a bad thing if you changed your mind though.
 
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bakenohana

bakenohana

ah...I want to disappear.
Feb 12, 2026
114
good luck, i hope you find the peace you're looking for ❤️, sorry life has brought you to this point
 
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Matchaaa

Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
223
I'm sorry life has brought you to this point.Good luck to you. May you find your own peace and happiness.
 
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Luther84

Member
Feb 17, 2026
54
How are you holding up?
 
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ForgetIExist

Student
Jan 31, 2026
109
may i ask why this is your chosen method instead of doing something like jumping?
I'm no expert but your probably a lot more likely to survive with jumping. I don't think SN has any lasting negative side effects (physically at least) if you survive. You could become a vegetable and be soooo much worse off if your survive jumping. The fear of surviving as a vegetable is what has kept me from jumping / crashing my car in the already.
 
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uselessmanz

Student
Feb 18, 2026
132
I'm no expert but your probably a lot more likely to survive with jumping. I don't think SN has any lasting negative side effects (physically at least) if you survive. You could become a vegetable and be soooo much worse off if your survive jumping. The fear of surviving as a vegetable is what has kept me from jumping / crashing my car in the already.
From 150'? No way you survive.
 
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uselessmanz

Student
Feb 18, 2026
132
fightclub17

fightclub17

Hopefully ctb on the 9th of April
Mar 3, 2026
250
I think 150ft is definitely fatal. But the rare chance you survive you could lose limbs and be paralysed. You'd then wish you could die, but not be physically able to try again. Kinda like locked in syndrome for the rest of your life. That's the worst life to live.
 

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