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BlueButterfly111

BlueButterfly111

Autistic and Heartbroken
Dec 26, 2024
288
My Sn from sd finally arrived, I made multiple posts about how my Sn never arrived from DMC for almost 3 months. This one took a month, but it finally arrived yesterday!

I'm so relieved, I was going to attempt to ctb the night that I got it but tomorrow is my moms birthday and next week is Mother's Day, so I'll probably do it the week after next. Despite how much I'm suffering and want to die I don't want that to be her memory of Mother's Day, or for her to have to find out on her Birthday tomorrow. I'm just hoping that I won't regret not taking it immediately and that everything will go according to plan when I do attempt to use it.

But yeah I'm just glad that I have it now, of course I would've preferred DMC but I believe that this is reliable. I'm just so hurt by everything, and so tired. Please don't ask me about sources, do your research. Just an update, I was so excited when I first found out!
 
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FishRain3469

FishRain3469

Experienced
Mar 12, 2025
252
Wow, Yikes.. A lot going on there and I totally get it. Have had Numerous situations where I tell myself.. It's Time!! Pull the trigger Already! But that is all easier said than Done. Especially with birthdays/ anniversarys that might come up with friends/family. Done that sooo many times already. Fck . Fml


You are Not alone, Please take care of yourself. ♥
 
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Droso

Droso

Born, survive, reproduce, die.
Dec 23, 2024
202
I'm glad. I hope you find him again whenever you decide to follow through. And that everything goes smoothly.
 
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BlueButterfly111

BlueButterfly111

Autistic and Heartbroken
Dec 26, 2024
288
I'm glad. I hope you find him again whenever you decide to follow through. And that everything goes smoothly.
Thank you❤️ I'm hoping so as well, I think that it will be here soon, I really hope so!
 
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Griever

Griever

SN
May 1, 2025
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I hope you find the peace you're looking for
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,521
I understand why you'd feel relief as I also feel so tired of suffering in this cruel existence, I wish you the best.
 
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bankai

bankai

Enlightened
Mar 16, 2025
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you have a kind of superpower now. use it well 😏
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
1,891
I am so glad your torturous wait for an access to an escape for this world has ended <3 Also its nice of you to want to stay for your mum for a bit before you die so these special days are less negative for her. I hope the days go quickly so that if you do decide you want to die as soon as possible you can.
 
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BlueButterfly111

BlueButterfly111

Autistic and Heartbroken
Dec 26, 2024
288
I am so glad your torturous wait for an access to an escape for this world has ended <3 Also its nice of you to want to stay for your mum for a bit before you die so these special days are less negative for her. I hope the days go quickly so that if you do decide you want to die as soon as possible you can.
Thank you so much❤️! Yeah it is a hard decision but ultimately I think I'm strong enough to wait just a little longer. I'm just hoping that everything goes as planned. Thanks:)
 
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CravingPeace

CravingPeace

It’s only a matter of time
Feb 19, 2025
338
Jesus, finally! Congrats!
 
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nyctophilia

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Wow, finally, I hope everything goes well for you.
 
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