My Situation - Advice Appreciated.

[RichardFirst]

Hi Everyone,

I've been away from the site for a while, but here I am back. I want to get something things off my chest and perhaps seek some advice.

Firstly, let me say that I was one of the unfortunate people who was caught up in the closure of IC. I had ordered Sn literally days before the site went down, and it was on the way to me. However, the Canadian authorities tipped off the police in my country in Europe, and all hell broke loose. I don't know precisely why, but the police called to my mother's home at 4am. I do not live there, but they told my mother what had happened, and I received both a welfare check at my own house and a frantic series of calls from my hysterical mother. I think that the police called to my mom because my driver's license still has my mother's address on it, but regardless, she found out.

I managed to get the police to leave me alone. SN isn't illegal, but they made things very difficult for me, and there was even talk of admitting me to a hospital against my will (yes, that is possible here). Eventually, the SN did actually arrive at my own house, but I had promised my mother that I would turn it into the police, and I cannot lie to my mother, so I did so. I had it in my hands, 100g of the stuff and my way out of this s**tshow, and I gave it up. Part of me wishes that I'd just lied and kept it, but one thing I do not do well is lie.

This was back in May, but none of the issues that brought me to this point have really gone away. I am rapidly running out of steam, and I want out, but what can I do? Even if I knew of a source for SN, I am frightened of ordering anything else online as if I get caught again, I'll probably get sanctioned and locked up. At this point, I am thinking that hanging is the only viable option for me. Are the other options? I don't honestly know what to do.

I guess that this is more of a rant than anything else, but if anyone has any ideas, please do share them.

 

[FuneralCry]

That really is so awful what you went through, it's so inhumane how those people wish to restrict reliable suicide methods and force people to suffer until they die anyway. I find it so horrible how there isn't a straightforward way to peacefully and reliably escape from this existence, but anyway best wishes, I hope you eventually find what you search for.

 

[RichardFirst]

That really is so awful what you went through, it's so inhumane how those people wish to restrict reliable suicide methods and force people to suffer until they die anyway. I find it so horrible how there isn't a straightforward way to peacefully and reliably escape from this existence, but anyway best wishes, I hope you eventually find what you search for.

Thank you. The police actually told me that their aim is to "preserve life". Hmm....

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry what you have to go through is so awful. It's so inhumane how suicidal people are treated and how much more suffering is caused here. It's none of their business (police) to decide over private and personal decisions someone makes for themselves. I hope you can find peace!

Have you considered the CO method?

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[spinningmyself]

It is aweful the lengths people have to go through just to have peace. I have come to the realization that I am just not going to have a peaceful way out. The way I have finally chosen is maybe going to traumatize someone but hopefully not my family as it will seem like an accident. I wish you all the best in your situation and I am so sorry for all you have gone through. It shouldn't be that way. I feel that population is so out of control and we as a species are ruining this planet, running out of resources and yet they still want to keep people who want to go from the peaceful and painless resources. It doesn't make much sense to me. Idk I feel what you are going through and I wish you all the best in figuring out whatever you can do.

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

are you able to travel at all? i would hate to be locked up. have been 3 times so i know it doesn't agree with me. what i'd do is go to a country/city where they kind of ignore things like this. there are many. my preference seems to be a cartel driven town (i won't mention the name but you can easily search it). i doubt there are many police there. heard it's pretty dangerous but.. isn't that the point?

 

[tera_forest]

Yeah I was about to go with SN too until I heard the police were doing welfare checks. You could try research chemicals? I heard it's supposed to be a peaceful way to go out, though you will have to do a bit of searching

 

[befree]

However, the Canadian authorities tipped off the police in my country in Europe, and all hell broke loose.

This happens because so many members keep posting details about sources, names and addresses of sources, photos showing the label with the name and address of the source, details about shipping and customs declaration...etc.. The authorities are very grateful for all these details.

I´m not asking where in Europe you live and you should not mention it in the forum. But if you live in a EU country, it´s very easy to order SN from one of the EU sources. Packages shipped within the EU are not checked by customs.

In this thread you can find an overview of common methods. Some of the download links for books don´t work anymore. If you want those pdf-books let me know.

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This is just a general information. I do not encourage you to commit suicide and to use these methods. You act on your own responsibility.

 

[GasMonkey]

Don't talk to the police. If you talk to them don't admit anything, deny everything, don't give them anything (it's your property and it's legal stuff). Don't let them into your house, they can't do that unless they have a search warrant.

Everybody who ends up on psych wards is because they talk to the police and start to confess a bunch of stuff. Police can't ramdomly pick somebody and lock them up in a psych ward, they need to collect evidence to do so, don't give them any evidence of anything, don't give them any data to fuck you up.

Use your brain.​

 

[venin]

Hi Everyone,

I've been away from the site for a while, but here I am back. I want to get something things off my chest and perhaps seek some advice.

Firstly, let me say that I was one of the unfortunate people who was caught up in the closure of IC. I had ordered Sn literally days before the site went down, and it was on the way to me. However, the Canadian authorities tipped off the police in my country in Europe, and all hell broke loose. I don't know precisely why, but the police called to my mother's home at 4am. I do not live there, but they told my mother what had happened, and I received both a welfare check at my own house and a frantic series of calls from my hysterical mother. I think that the police called to my mom because my driver's license still has my mother's address on it, but regardless, she found out.

I managed to get the police to leave me alone. SN isn't illegal, but they made things very difficult for me, and there was even talk of admitting me to a hospital against my will (yes, that is possible here). Eventually, the SN did actually arrive at my own house, but I had promised my mother that I would turn it into the police, and I cannot lie to my mother, so I did so. I had it in my hands, 100g of the stuff and my way out of this s**tshow, and I gave it up. Part of me wishes that I'd just lied and kept it, but one thing I do not do well is lie.

This was back in May, but none of the issues that brought me to this point have really gone away. I am rapidly running out of steam, and I want out, but what can I do? Even if I knew of a source for SN, I am frightened of ordering anything else online as if I get caught again, I'll probably get sanctioned and locked up. At this point, I am thinking that hanging is the only viable option for me. Are the other options? I don't honestly know what to do.

I guess that this is more of a rant than anything else, but if anyone has any ideas, please do share them.

It sounds painful and exhausting… I'm sorry about your situation.

 

[RichardFirst]

Don't talk to the police. If you talk to them don't admit anything, deny everything, don't give them anything (it's your property and it's legal stuff). Don't let them into your house, they can't do that unless they have a search warrant.

Everybody who ends up on psych wards is because they talk to the police and start to confess a bunch of stuff. Police can't ramdomly pick somebody and lock them up in a psych ward, they need to collect evidence to do so, don't give them any evidence of anything, don't give them any data to fuck you up.

Use your brain.​

I agree completely. I have a very low regard for the police in general, but the issue here was that they involved my mother. If she knew nothing, I would have told the police to f**k off, and they couldn't have done anything. However, I love my mother, and I cannot lie to her.

Yeah I was about to go with SN too until I heard the police were doing welfare checks. You could try research chemicals? I heard it's supposed to be a peaceful way to go out, though you will have to do a bit of searching

Anything in particular that is known to work?

are you able to travel at all? i would hate to be locked up. have been 3 times so i know it doesn't agree with me. what i'd do is go to a country/city where they kind of ignore things like this. there are many. my preference seems to be a cartel driven town (i won't mention the name but you can easily search it). i doubt there are many police there. heard it's pretty dangerous but.. isn't that the point?

Sadly no. I'm limited to travel in Europe for the most part, and air-travel makes me extremely ill.

 

[feder]

So relatable, the availability of SN in Europe is super low currently, it's going to either provoke a welfare check if you buy it from some shady siteor they just won't sell it to you. I've been on at least 10 "legal" sites and all of them require you to buy it as a company and don't sell it to people. It's sucks honestly

Sorry that this happened to you, there might be some better methods than hanging, only if you dont have access to any of them consider hanging. It's a really difficult and risky thing so it might be best to try other options first.
Wish you the best!

 

[tera_forest]

Anything in particular that is known to work?

This thread mentions a few like Methylmethaqualone, Metonitazene, and Protonitazene. Since these drugs are legal you can probably get them without alerting the authorities. Hope this helps.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/whats-in-your-suicide-kit-i-study-pharmacology.113882/

 

[KowakuNaiNeko]

Glad that you didn't get involuntary hospitalized. That situation would scare the crap out of me.

Maybe consider if inert gas is viable? Not sure how closely you're being watched.